::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Monday, October 17, 2005

yesterday a bit mood swing
duno wat to say
felt that my environment is changing
as in, the people that tends to walked around me had changed
of cuz...this has happened since i went to 3e1
making new friends gettin into new companies and stuffs
and i felt that i had lost my old friends

rumours had been running about the ex e3 boys
all the stupid rumours about lim and me
i had always taken it as a joke and assumed that They took it as a joke too
so i didnt really wanna do anything about it
until someone was telling me they might took it for real
either they really took it for real or that person is bluffing me
but i got really sad ba
cuz this is of cuz..not the truth
but they really believe that there is a relationship
how can?
i still nid my face and he still nid his
i had my own likes and he too
wat would his and my crush feels in this way
so discuss abit with lim
and decided that for all the best he mite try and get on with the gal he likes
just wish him good luck then
and i had therefore stand and say that
lim is my good friend
and just and only a friend
there had never been anything more than that and will never be
they just dun understand that guys and gals do become good friends

just felt that because of three guys (j.g, b.y, a.l)
because of three words...bgr
i lost the company of funny and playful friends
i noe i had lost the rights to be their good friends anymore
i was advised not to regret the lost
but to carry on with the gain of my new friends
maybe...quite true
though now..my friends around me are the more serious type
indicating that my life is gonna ba full of seriousness and competitions
the fun and slacking life is already behind
i shouldnt go back and try to get back that crowd of people since i noe i have lost it all
i should try to enjoy the new company
and be happy out of it

not that this new company i have is bad
and u'll never hear me say that cuz it was never true
but because im still childish ba
i wanna have a childish life
with games and fun
think i really should grow out of it
and continue my life with wat was around me

mei yi ci de fang kai
dou shi yi ci jie tuo

wint3rdreamz@1:00 PM
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