::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

teacher's day celebration today
the rest of the day after the concert was meant to be real lessons de
but played the whole day instead
all the games that should be played years ago was played today

today's concert was nice
the teachers are kinda touched about it

during english we took ms low's idea of letting us conduct a lesson for that day instead of she conducting a lesson for us
cause we are actually not having any lessons and we do not want one at the last period as well
didnt know it can work so well
kinda brave of min to propose this idea to mrs.d'cruz
were repeating all the games that we played previously
didnt know that mrs.dcruz can be such a good imitator

went to eat with min jann wy yh
took neoprints at the newly opened shop in np

was talking about changing seats again
haiz the more i talk the more hopeful i am the more disappointed
i know its unfair to lr if i dont feel like sitting with her
i believe friends have their own 'code'
only people with codes that link can be together
somehow in that big set of codes, me and lr only matched a few
that's why after so many years we are friends but not the best ones
due to difference in character as well
i cant really find something that can make both of us laugh real hard
i just cant find any

this morning i was kinda down
the unability of participating in this teachers' day celebration makes it so
i thought, after almost six months, i could fang xia
but i realised i cant
i still have that yi han that i couldnt be like jann min--a councillor
i had been hearing min saying that its tough being one
but i somehow had the instincts that i wanna take up challenges in life
i would rather spent my time thinking of solutions to solve problems than to let them rest
or maybe its because many of my friends are in it
when they have meetings or whatever i just feel out of crowd
but mainly is the yi han i have
in primary the ambition of being a leader had always be with me
i had tried prefect on primary school yet i failed
and now the chance simply slipped off my hands six months ago
that was one of my yi han in my life
and its no going to leave me till i leave this school

wint3rdreamz@5:50 PM
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Monday, August 29, 2005

almost slept for all the lessons today
enduring like siao

min was absent today...heard lr say she was was having fever
didnt dare to call her in case i disturb her rest
just hope she'll be fine soon

e maths today was noisy
yl and bs keep talking and were disturbing jannice
'scolding' her for whatever particular reason they can find
even if it's not reasonable
then was talking about maple
bs mentioned that ben was 'chi luan fan de'
cause he keep having grace to help him play mah
maybe he was jealous or what...haha
but then..he had his brother to help him too

no dsa today
was actually meant to have one
then suppose to leave class at 1.45
last lesson--hcl
when mr.zhang went into the classroom he looked bu shuang
when some of us didnt bring our wkbook and he was jotting down names he looked more bu shuang
then after spelling we were a bit rowdy before lesson starts, he looked bu shuang then ever
then yr dont dare to ask for leave
i did instead at 1.50
left the class with yr and addison
weird that the others didnt leave...as in other arc people from other classes
ate le lunch
when gym outside wait for ms.ng
heard from the other arc ic that today no dsa
yr and addison didnt take her word for it as they had been 'cheated' before
but it turned out to be true
ms.ng had messaged yr to tell everyone that there is no dsa today
and it was sent at 10+
just that yr didnt go open it till then, 2pm
was thinking how would mr.zhang react if he knew there was no dsa

reached home soon after
played

going to do homework liaoz
hcl wkbook havent finish yet
wait tomorrow he come look for me and i didnt do i think i am gonna be dead meat

wint3rdreamz@4:52 PM
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

was busy yesterday...helping mom a lot just like any saturday
because of that, didnt get to go to watch the maid with lim jj and wk
haiz.

iron spoilt today...so half a day off...haha

starting an assassin account for gm event
think my friend bluffed me about winning gm event to become a gm
haha
but never mind just wanna go

kinda looking for tuesday's presentation
thinking of purposely putting our group first instead of last because of the mooncakes festival
the video is gonna be pukingly fun...haha

feel like playing sports again..hee

that's that..gonna go play liao bye

wint3rdreamz@7:42 AM
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

so fast...all results out
eng--60
hcl--58.9
em--95
am--76.7
phy--86.4
bio--80
che--61.4
c.h--70 (geo--73 ss--67)
l1r5--10
avg--73.6

see my chemistry i piang
haiz...
my languages just like sht
even lim got an A for english...sigh

dropped dropped
really sianning

these days really boring...dont know what to say

nothing much to say now...

wint3rdreamz@7:24 PM
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

haiz haiz haiz
think i shouldnt complain too much
but...i am really off my standards
hcl dropped n chem dropped like sht
e rest okok n my ss improved
wee...but gettin off my class's standards
i stayin there den e rest improvin
how can?

lim was askin me if my results dropped
kinda yes
n he was tellin me eddy dropped a lot
cause of mapling?
i admit i was spending quite a long time at maple
but during e exams i stopped playing
even though others are still playing
bs..dont know got drop a not
ben yes and no

whatever it is i have been spending at least one hour per day doing some study
revision and stuff
i must improve back
especially my sciences
four areas of subjects-- language humanities sciences maths
my language and humanities are always hopeless
but if even my sciences and maths are like that i might as well jump down
so must maintain...no lower than A for all maths and sciences
that's my constant!!

wint3rdreamz@7:42 PM
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Sunday, August 21, 2005

sunday le...geez
long time no blog...someone must be getting impatient

hmm...monday
english and hcl paper
english was ok but ran out of time for hcl
thought was about to finish it that's why i did as if i have all the time in the world
so in the end...incompleted
haiz...
english may get a 'b' ba
hcl...may even 'c'...cause my compo is not well done
40+/70
when there are people like xl who can get 60/70
my god..

tuesday
social studies and e maths
social studies...as bad as before
with a big mistake
dont know how it happened
i just simply misread a sbq
the question was: how similar are sources c and d?
and i went to compare b and c
haiz.
e maths was easier
made a mistake in one question
simply with the the thought of "there will be no such answer as NA"
but the answer is really NA...siann
then i dont know why didnt follow what lr said about bearings
that there is a decimal place for it
but as i practise questions the day before all bearings are seen in whole numbers
got reducted of 1 mark for degree of accuracy again
haiz.
another mark gone for dont know what reason i forgot

wednesday geography and chemistry
quite badly done...for both papers
even chemistry's tough
got quite a number of stuffs that i didnt study
if i would have spent more time on my notebook i might have scored better
geography is always as badly done..so i am not so sad about it
but if i get a 'b' for chemistry...i really dont know what to do

thursday biology and physics
thought it was the toughest...but actually not
can at least secure an 'a' if there's not much careless mistakes

friday a maths
got 15+/60 marks....gone.
made a lot a lot of mistakes and didnt do oen question even
would be happy if i can pass this

saturday spent most of the time finishing the stuffs that i am not able to do due to exams
tough work really
things that are to be done within a week are all pushed to one and a half day
wah lao...backache headache whatever ache
mom's birthday yesterday as well
mom gave a treat to some close friends and siblings
brother took the whole night mahjong advantage to play the computer from 11pm till 7am

today normal day
happy that i advanced
pq was much funny as me being a cleric
keep healing and healing
though the items that i got are not very good
but never mind i'll just continue using up most of my last few chances to do more pqs

the sian feeling that i got during july last year got back to me again yesterday while during a 2h chat
what does that really mean?

wint3rdreamz@3:45 PM
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

jus played ms from 6am
blogging and breakfast-ing now
going to take a very short nap to "wash" my eyes a bit and study from 12 to 12

yesterday was kinda pissed
thought everyting can be settled within a few minutes
in the end it took the whole period
just two words "we quit" took us so long to argue with him
actually i still like table tennis de
i want to continue playing it
but because of
him
his way of managing the club
makes me feel like quiting
he said he spent a lot of his time
but he didnt really help a lot
almost everything had to be done by ourselves
he must understand the limitations of what a student can do
whatever it is

actually feel kind of sorry for him
heard that he got scolded or something
then he was kinda "like this" ever since
in the past he used to be a very good tic i have heard
i dont know what to do
i do feel like very irresponsible somehow
i remembered something about what shaun said about being stressed then quit
he was talking about sc and some of its members
wanting to quit because of some dont know what reason
so i have a feeling that by quiting ttc i am jus like those sc-s as well
irresponsible
never mind..i will give myself the weekend after the common test to have a good think about this
this is not the time to think about anything else but exams

going to study three subjects today
a tuesday subject, a wednesday subject, and a thursday subject
then tomorrow change a bit
english and chinese also must study
practice a bit on them perhaps

failed pq today again
dont know why i just didnt concentrate on pressing my shift--pot button
but instead of jumping to the correct place to kill that stupid king slime
am really afraid they'll not look for me for pq anymore because of this incident
haiz...

2 days to ca2, 6 days to the end of it (",)

wint3rdreamz@11:27 AM
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Thursday, August 11, 2005

another normal day in school
sianz--boring...not unhappy haha
didnt know i get to confront that guy today
the looter...now its called

i thought the method i used is real stupid
real useless
i really ran out ideas
in the end...the looter i am dealing with
is not someone that hard that i expect to deal, as a looter
he himself was actually looted before
i thought i would have talked too much to him about him being wrong about looting that he would simply walk away
but perhaps because he really believed i am who i said i am
he believed my lie..though that pro beside him dont
(shouldve used whispering instead...got one guy keep ka-jiaoing us for nothing)
anyway...convinced that guy to return that 10% scroll to benjamin
didnt expect it'll take such a short time
though i did take some time tracking down that guy

went to buy min's birthday present the night before
np on national day was real crowded

hmm...being thinking of what i have to save up for for this rest of this year
-mom's prezzie
-jann's prezzie
-bro's prezzie
-wallet
-school bag
-water bottle (maybe)
-something else

that's basically what i have to save up for
well thats kinda a lot of things...excluding school stuffs

keep assuming i can cope with my studies
in fact...i am not very sure

wint3rdreamz@10:25 PM
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

just woke up from a 1h+ sleep
cannot stand it...playing that noob account makes me feel sleepy
once got to level ten le i feel simply like quiting
there again....i found a weakness of mine: i dont like to reject
unless i am forced or i wouldnt reject
eg. my mom always force me to pon unnecessary activities
but sometimes it includes helping the others as well
honestly i felt a bit waste of an hour plus training from level one to ten
the creation of another team of six warriors, just for faming UP
i specifically meant UP, and NoT down
i dont create that six extra people to defame
it is used to fame myself or my friends up and that's all
thats something i am insisting on...i wont do bad things
even for whatever so-called "self-defense"

now i am feeling so fresh..going out to buy some stuffs to cook dinner soon
macaroni today! hehehe so long never cook and eat this le
and it is one of the easiest to cook, besides spaggetti

this is way cool
for my previous character it took me three weeks to turn level 27
but now only in one week my second character is already 26
wahahaa....that rocks
mage rocks, though i agree rogue rules more
(i was getting kills stole from those assassin pros)

not really in the mood of national day
just another holiday when i can slack and play
and most importantly, study tonight
finally had got that little bit of motivation to study
because of that social studies class test i had realised i had lacked soo many knowledge in the ss topics
so mus try and understand and familiarise the stories tonight
( i dont memorise; i'll die)

tomorrow another holiday, a chance for me to get a step closer to level 30...

wint3rdreamz@4:50 PM
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Monday, August 08, 2005

weather: cloudy n windy...rained in the morning

i feel good! da da da da da da da~~

national day celebration in schol today...no lessons!
was supposed to have sports day, meaning palying gaems for my house
but since i wasn't in the games, i did not go down.
kinda boring at first, accompanying lr to ask ms tsw about some maths questions, though did learn something
but seeing the ex-e3 guys going to the 4th storey corridor to play soccer, i left the party and went upstairs
the guys are playing 3 on 3
did not have a chance to play in the end
the groups were reformed a short time after i came
but as dominic is not happy with the "not a lucky chance reformation" we wasted a lot of time...arguing?
went to the 3rd floor to play instead as the auntie(or uncle??) told us that we are not allowed to play there
didnt really play as mr f*ng (not fcs..its e older one) came and confiscated the ball
sad.
so basically everyone left.
except for benjamin, lim and me
spent some time in my class talking about stuffs--the past and mainly ms
went home after that

the weather is real nice today. love it.

decided to obey my mom as much as possible
only played ms for a while without her noticing and logged off after lunch
(was lunching in front of the com)

happy day! (",)

wint3rdreamz@6:50 PM
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Friday, August 05, 2005

had dsa tday agn
was asked to comment abit bout everyone that we had asked to try out with
i wrote comments like "very stable" "ok"
negative ones like "too plump...cannot reach hip-bone" "unstable"
there's even one guy that was about 140cm ba
i commented "CaNnOt hold rifle"
it's not hard, it's cannot
i remembered how i tell him that he can go le without trying out the rifle
cuz he was kinda not physically ok for shooting
hope puberty will help him in future ba

yongrui was nice
everyone was supposed to take a lane to help the primary school students today
then huimin asked me which lane i take
i anyhow just said 3
forgot that lane 3 was the spoilt one
the auto thingy cannot work, that means one have to pull the strings to get the target cards from one end to another
yongrui offered to change lanes with me
haha..rejected at first...it doesnt really matter since it would take a lot of effort for me to do so
then he asked again and again
got hesitant...then offered to exchange lanes for every batch of students
that means, after helping one student, we will change lanes
then change again after another one
but as i was too slow in helping, we didnt really get to change
so sorry to let him keep using that lane after the 4th batch?or 5th i forgot
at the end even helped me to keep the rifle that i am supposed to keep in the stores
zhenling says he is a si wen bai lei...actually it's not really true
he's quite a good friend ba

listened to the music diary yesterday
it was about someone writing about the story of her friend
her friend was about 15 then
she had known a guy on the net
who was about 24 ba
at first i am not very interested in hearing music diary until i heard this starting
i continued listening it
she fell real deep
ponning school and stuffs just to meet him
got further and further from her friends
that guy was a...duno what he was
only know that he had no job and he likes to play guitar ba
then they always spent time together
then one day after the author had not heard from her friend for a very very long time
when she went to school early that day...she saw her friend crying real hard
she said her boyfriend had left her
whatever reason it was, it wasnt told
but the thing is that, i cant believe that there's actually someone who couldve fell soo deep that she could skip even daily lessons to be with her him
if i am not wrong the girl was in quite a terrible state after that
fell too deep, hurt too much

must admit that i didnt fall deep enough
was too scared to...was walking down the steps one by one
so wasnt really hurt that much
still climbing up was able to

wint3rdreamz@7:43 PM
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Thursday, August 04, 2005

common test comin soon
no mood to study
only wanna finish my secret plann
hehe...actually think everyone had an idea wat it is le
but i still din say my name out...so considered secret plan

bio test tday...duno alot of ans

pe before tt
managed to prevent shaam's team frm battin
as in...we maintained battin till e end of e period
i was e first one out
n it was rather painful
i was runnin to e fourth base
when shaam was standin near me wid e ball
i meant to run asap to e fourth base before e person there can stop me
but instead of tryin to throw it to e person there
he chased me n threw e ball rite at my backside
lol
painn man....got blue black sial
but alrite now
in e end got saved frm death as more than 10 ppl had home run

weiee joann n shirlyn din go do duty tday
duno y may be smthing bout wat shaun said yesterday

mr s*o's givin trouble again
said write official letter if had to be excused from trainin
quite siann leh...min said it's only a second cca oso nid to do this kind of thing
but actually even first cca oso no nid
cannot go jus tell tic n if explanation is reasonable can pon cca liao
maybe cuz recently no trainins den he got unhappy
but honestly...it was those oral exams prob...
and bout e guys...duno wth he wanna from them
he himself shld noe v clearly tt e guys wanna quit le
buden he still consider em as members n insisted em to go for trainin on tues n weds after ct2
said tt if they r quitin, they have to look for him PeRsOnAlLy
aiyos...e guys scared of him lidat...go c him once like will die lidat
he nag let him nag la...den yi liao bai liao
no nid to get wy into trouble as well...she is e one being scolded when ppl r absent leh
spare a tot for her,ok?

wint3rdreamz@5:05 PM
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