::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

no go sch today..haha
went to ica with my family to apply for citizenship in e mornin
i tot wats gonna happen in sch today as lim and wy told me ms premela told them not to skip school today
yuan lai its bout droppin subjects e thing
honestly if i m asked to drop any....i would reject them
studyin 7 subjects sounds slackin to me
which of cuz..i would like
but 8 sounds more nice than 7
(having a sd personality is like this de Xp)
of cuz...im not tryin to stick myself to being sd
but when i acted or think in the way of sd
i'll just notice

mapled in the mornin
for an hour just now too
finally lvled up
still not hunted tt stupid scroll
i wanna finish those quest asap then i can train with those cute cute jr.wraith le
hehe

school is actually quite sian nowadays
mite as well stay home and play...
and study of cuz

wint3rdreamz@4:03 PM
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

had personally course today
quite fun actually....e coach v interesting
got a major S and a minor D
though after e analysis..i feel that they r equal for me
the funny thing is, s and d are 2 opposite personalities
s is wat i think is slackers
d is wat i think is .... i oso duno wat...direct?
hmm...

went to eat with wy and jan after school
e o.r burger is gettin smaller and smaller
...
shopped for e chinese condensed book of words
cant find again
thinkin tt i mite have one at home
i think i better look at home first then c ba

before tt e class was kinda empty from 12.30+ till 2
cuz got alot of ppl going to maths carnival
then played soccer in class and listened to azrin playin guitar
nice nice

someone getting zhong se qing you le..
haha
good luck!

wint3rdreamz@6:30 PM
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Monday, October 24, 2005

y did aquila gets soo full?
waste my time trying to log in
siann
next time after playing in the morning better dun log out
then warn my bro not to
then can play in e afternoon

this is saddening
lsot to siaochi in overall
lost to her again
this time by 4 marks
watever it is...think top 15 gonnee...
ppl r getting more and more li hai
wat to do wat to do?
mt exams in days
feels so nervous yet so sleepy
hope can get a nite to study...no nid to work at all
but...its just as hoping mom to cook tonite's dinner isnt it?
one word...ImPoSsIbLe...

drat mstow
planned to give us assignment to finish by fri
siao...wondered how many more chinese words to be able to study instead of doing tt 4 LoNg StructUred QueStions..
argued abit
agreed to hand in during the hols

duno wat to study bout chinese
wanna get lesser words to study
planned to buy the o'level chinese book
looked for days still cannot find it
so today mrzhang gave e list of words
good!!
gonna study tt tonite
if i get to do as much as possible study half
hahaha

7 more days to o'...so short
7 more days to step out of stress...so long...

wint3rdreamz@4:02 PM
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

duno wat got to mom last nite
she slpt real early
and obviously woke up damn early to day
my bro took e chance and played e com till morning
got caught by mom and was scolded terribly
because of tt i couldnt played e com
she was workin
and forced me to tidy my room
siann

now maple full le..cannot get in
zhen shi de

wint3rdreamz@2:38 PM
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

got back my results yesterday
some happy happy some v sad

eng (w/o oral)--59.1
hmt--65
emaths--93.1
amaths--83.8
chem--88.3
phy--79.2
bio--64.2
combine humans--28(geo)+37(ss)=65

total--598.7
average--74.8
L1R5--10

total and average mite drop..cuz of eng oral
so surprised bout my ss...
received geo first and tot im gonna get worse than 28 for ss
and hmt as well
i always get c or even fail for it
now cuz of my compo i got pushed up to 65
that was good man

got kinda disappointed with bio
though i already knew i not gonna score an a for this
but a b4...i must admit i cannot take it well
my section b of paper 2 got only 10/30
my essay had contents tt e examiner is Not looking for
just like my geo
my qn 2 answerin had got big probs
i tot i had satisfied e marker
though not v well
but in the end e ans required something else
haiz

emaths was the proudest haha
i was low of confidence in paper and i got okok for tt
but more confident for paper 2 and i scored kind high for tt

wat is over is over le
now my o' to concentrate
but somehow still no mood to study
the temptation of e com!
and of cuz cuz not many ppl havin o'
so they slack off...i oso feel like slackin off

went for my cousin's weddin dinner last nite
the hotel service is dam good and the place is dam Cold
usually food is always served in big plates for per table
but for this one they got e big plates
the waiters would scoop e food to individual plates then they'll serve it to us
den got one survey
i did e usual thing
and out of range 1-7 for each qn i shaded 5 for all of them
without readin e qn
haha

before tt went off for tourism competition briefing
actually shouldnt go but...just go lo
luckily ms cheng helped abit
or i'll be quarellin with my bro till duno when

forcely went out on thurs
i told my mom to spare me off for one day
cuz actually i had not much to do tt day
but my mom just dun wan me to go out
so ask and ask..then ok le lorx
so fun
played quite alot
too bad maple patchin in e afternoon
then got trashed by boshen in winnin 11
6 or 7-0 i forgot
cuz i din on e analog and i was using it
tts y my players are 'stationary'
cannot attack
duno how in the heavens i got to spend $5+ in a person's house
they ordered pizza and i got a share
$5.50
...

when to play volleyball later
really enjoyed myself
just as much as i have not enjoyed like this for months

so looking forward for 1st nov
so dreaded 31st october

wint3rdreamz@11:53 AM
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Thursday, October 20, 2005

cant wait for o' to be over
yet scared the arrival of it

been thinkin wat i will do during e hols
i will learn swimmin
i will maple to win e assassin
i will go for trainin
i will go out and play
soo many more
haha

but firstly
i must a1 for my chinese o'

wint3rdreamz@12:08 PM
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

today's marking day
tmr's as well
meant to go out de
in either the three out options i had mentioned yesterday
e fourth one..stayin at home
sort of wat im doing now
e 4th option
but in a dif manner
i am not playin
well...true i was playin the whole morning
but the moment mom woke up
i was doing work for her until now
rest abit only la
later still nid to carry on
meant to do wat was supposed to be done in three days in one day
it will take the whole day and even nite
but i have a purpose in this

i wan to go out of cuz
the movie i had always wanted to watch
i missed it
so i mus find something benefit to an wei myself
its my mom's prob
i did told her i would be going out today since monday
then normally e day when i go out
she would usually ask me wat time to leave and she'll arrange things for me to finish b4 i leave
this time...duno when she got my weakness
firstly...she ate her breakfast in silence
and din mention anything about me going out today
then...she assigned me jobs today as though i did not mention tt im going out today
she said: complete e dress u had not finished yesterday...and work on e new shirt
actually...i can finish these within an h or 2
so i told her i going out after that
after i had summonded alot of courage
y? cuz she had constantly reminded me to inform her the day b4 if i wanna go out
then if i just tell her: ma...i going out after these
it's as if like...i arranged these last sec
then she'll scold me
anyway...i still told her
she said: u still got o's leh...just one more week then u can go out all u wan
wth...tot i just finished my eoy?
cant let me go out just today and i'll concentrate later on
she told me yesterday i spent e whole afternoon playin
enough liao
eh..ok ba...miss it then miss it

i din inform the others bout me not going
i tot if i pon this movie they would not even notice or care
anyway the idiotic guy msged me
asking me not watchin le ar

so back to wat i said on top
to find something good out of this to an wei myself
and i had found it
well....i only had 1 and an almost finished job for the day
1 tmr and another 1 e day after
mite as well i finished all today
then i can study my o' all i like tmr and on fri
good thing rite?
it certainly diao-ing...to think that studyin is something good
but... really, the exam pressure is still with ever since one week before the eoy

actually...ive always started to worry at the day before e main papers de
but this time...because i was asked to start a study timetable the week before
so the pressure arrived early
due to the fact that i had insisted myself to follow the timetable

now its end of tht le
i had alrdy set my goal to finish memorising all e words in the 8 books 2 days before the actual chinese o, so that i have time to study other components
i feel the time is really kinda runnin out
i must do something
i must work
i must play...haha
but most importantly
i must find ample time to study out of work and play
hehe

wint3rdreamz@2:46 PM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

hehe...eoy over
in quite a good way i think
cuz it's physics paper!
muahahahaha....surely no full marks but reckon gonna get more than 30 for it
enough le enough le
cannot get top 5 le...nvm le
just make sure yl no get full marks for mcq can liao
just kiddin! cuz if he can top...let him top
quite funny to suan him bout gettin full marks for mcq today
xp

lr got discharged yesterday
too bad still cannot come back to school to take phy1
she was really strong
got dengue for 5 days without realising it
got into hospital for 2 days come out liao
wa...
think she's recovering at home
get real well soon gal

tmr going out
the only thing is going out where

initially is going ice skating with jeffery yr and their 4n1 frens de
then min not going
abit left out in this way
might as well dun go
think she felt the same way too
tt's why she decided not to go

then the guys are watching goal tmr
lim told me bout it
and told me Not to go for it
why? cuz of these stupid ppl la
if i go, they will say say he purposely ask me out
thinkin its impossible for guy and gal to be frens
fine lorx...
so i got another guy who was About to ask for to go
the thing is that this Idiotic guy said: o...btw...i think i'll leave tt for lim
(tt--askin me to go for movie)
go eat sht la...haha
u not fren fren with me is it?
so in e end...maybe not going...cuz sort-of not invited
haiz

3rd thing...going to watch duno wat movie with wy jan they all
the prob lies with i duno wat the movie is about
e only thing i noe is tt its a cartoon
so...not much enthu to go for tt

maybe staying at home and maple e whole day?
hmm...4th option of spending tmr

wint3rdreamz@4:00 PM
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Monday, October 17, 2005

yesterday a bit mood swing
duno wat to say
felt that my environment is changing
as in, the people that tends to walked around me had changed
of cuz...this has happened since i went to 3e1
making new friends gettin into new companies and stuffs
and i felt that i had lost my old friends

rumours had been running about the ex e3 boys
all the stupid rumours about lim and me
i had always taken it as a joke and assumed that They took it as a joke too
so i didnt really wanna do anything about it
until someone was telling me they might took it for real
either they really took it for real or that person is bluffing me
but i got really sad ba
cuz this is of cuz..not the truth
but they really believe that there is a relationship
how can?
i still nid my face and he still nid his
i had my own likes and he too
wat would his and my crush feels in this way
so discuss abit with lim
and decided that for all the best he mite try and get on with the gal he likes
just wish him good luck then
and i had therefore stand and say that
lim is my good friend
and just and only a friend
there had never been anything more than that and will never be
they just dun understand that guys and gals do become good friends

just felt that because of three guys (j.g, b.y, a.l)
because of three words...bgr
i lost the company of funny and playful friends
i noe i had lost the rights to be their good friends anymore
i was advised not to regret the lost
but to carry on with the gain of my new friends
maybe...quite true
though now..my friends around me are the more serious type
indicating that my life is gonna ba full of seriousness and competitions
the fun and slacking life is already behind
i shouldnt go back and try to get back that crowd of people since i noe i have lost it all
i should try to enjoy the new company
and be happy out of it

not that this new company i have is bad
and u'll never hear me say that cuz it was never true
but because im still childish ba
i wanna have a childish life
with games and fun
think i really should grow out of it
and continue my life with wat was around me

mei yi ci de fang kai
dou shi yi ci jie tuo

wint3rdreamz@1:00 PM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005

back at 6am today...
went to have dinner at coffee shop near the church
as its my mom's fren bdae...he was giving us a treat
he had just recovered from dengue
he face was kinda pale and stuff
worse thing...he cant drink alcohol for some time
(bad for him la..haha)
saw my sis cousin then
she was damn pretty that nite
she was actually quite pretty le
then with her makeup and everyting
looks real mature and stuffs
sial la...sounds like im les..lol

meant to go home after that to pia maple de
den was taken to aunt's house instead
'gambling den' should call it
ppl playin mahjong and cards in the living room
it was a newly rented apartment
so its my first time there
quite same to my house structure but kinda smaller living room
anyway...the siao ting is that they had the living room aircon on
closed all doors and windows...then still gt ppl smoke
tts was makes it really look like a den...the hazy environment
obviously, went to hide in my cousin's room (e other one)
then slpt almost immediately
bro woke me up at 6 am and told mom that we would walk back home ourselves instead of stayin there longer
i asked him y he's doing tt
he said: let u have more time to play comu dun wan meh?
eh...so nice of him

in fact..we do not know how to get to our house from my aunt's house
as in..which direction from the block to go
of cuz we noe it is near
it's block 300+ ma
then my bro he aga aga took one direction and walked
funnily...he walked towards the neighbouring police post
lol
i told him to go backwards instead
he dun listen
then walk near e post liao then he realise wrong direction..lol
dun listen to me la..haha

got home...and i almost immediately start mapling
till now
waste lots of time doin quest
got outside that portal which me and a group of ppl were convinced to be the pig farm
CaNnOt GeT iN!!!
argH
so gave up that quest an d did another one

gonna work abit and study liao
cannot look down on that 40 qns
or i mite lose it all
JiAyOuZ

wint3rdreamz@12:19 PM
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Saturday, October 15, 2005

exams just 'finished'
lol. funny
pp1 for chem and phy then we r Really off
not yet.. still got o's
*groans*

the papers r particularly like sht
think gonna say byebye to some of my a's
and...my 11th placing
no!!!
cannot de....but wat to do?
perform until so lousy...so siannerning

anyway dun care bout mon liao
went to min's house yesterday and slacked there
play badminton with min jeffery and yr
then talked alot bout the school
leaders, councillors etc
somehow i realised
actually for a few weeks
i dun really really felt sad about losing that chance
i had tried hard to convince myself not to take e loss so hard
anyway...it had paid off...somehow
at least when i c my frens getting tt big photo
i wun feel anything
watever it is

wanna play alot today
then tmr afternoon study liao...
siann...but
for the sake of all full marks for mcq
i must...i must!!

wint3rdreamz@7:20 AM
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Saturday, October 01, 2005

dont know what got to my mom and bro yesterday
they fought again...and it was much worse than before

mom caught my bro playing the com
but my bro was denying it as though she got stamp on eye like that
my mom was too concerned about my bro having a levels soon
so was nagging a bit more
and was angry that he lied to her and say as though it was her wrong
and that he didnt play at all (as if)

bro started it first
he got real freaked out and threw the newspaper towards the wall beside my mom in the living room
god knows my mom got angry too and threw her favourite cup at my bro's feet
it smashed, but luckily didnt hurt him
mom got really depressed again
she left the scene into her room, crying
well...what i did was
1. force open the door of my mom's room, to check that she was not doing the wrong things
2. hid all the knives and scissors in the house
if you dont get what i mean, never mind
anyway...bathed and tried to console her a bit
she talked and talked
think that calmed her a bit
so i told her to rest a bit first
and everything was soon over

the fear i always had...
whenever i got home i always had that fear
so i always try to follow what she says
and most importantly, not to talk back to her

friday was sad
although there is only 4 periods
but the amount of homework can easily exceed the amount of homework of any weekend
ws of ws of ws
tons and tons and tons of it
still need to study as well
hope i can really cope them all

wint3rdreamz@7:47 AM
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