::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Monday, July 31, 2006

was pia-ing my homeworks
somehow suddenly i lost my mood and came to blog

i thought i had forgotten
i assumed i can forget
but what happened two years ago of today
i cannot forget
was meant to be happy

actually i was happy today
with that 5n incident
dont know why
this by right should be classified as something bad happening
but somehow i had said something so daring that i din expect myself to say...this had somehow got me happy
i must be sick. what the hell is happening to me?

can talk about that later
i somehow wished that there isn't such day called 31st july
but it isn't actually affecting me a lot
the day isnt...but the person himself did
what i really cant believe is that up till now...after so long
i still find him someone 'special'
he's supposingly a friend of mine
and hopefully it stays that way
i sincerely wish that i had lost my memory
to know him all over again...with him as only a friend in my mindset
yet...i rather i dun lose my memory too
argh...sometimes i find myself pathetic
drowning in my own despair
sian liao...really sian liao
zzz

bout the 5n incident....
i'll mention it another day

wint3rdreamz@8:33 PM
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Sunday, July 23, 2006

still have not started revising
getting a bit guilty about this
haha...

went for leo club i&i yesterday
honestly...it was more fun then last year's
hahaha...
but there is something i wanna say:
i really really admire stephen chin
he rocks!!!!!! muahahahaa...
i had never...never ever met someone who is serious when he has to be
and be fun when he has to be
he has the airs of a person so important
yet when it comes to having fun
he totally dont care about his image

anyway he is not the main thing of the i&i
somehow i almost cried during the event
like...seeing my friends stepping down and everything
it sort of touched me
(though i am not a member...lol...)

then during the refreshments
yinghui was asking me if i am joining omega club (if it can be set up)
i actually had seriously considered this when jannice had asked me a few months ago
but i wanna go on with my pistol in jc
and...fearing of not having enough time for anything else
i might not be able to keep a good attendence record if i join omega
so...if i may not be able to do so...why join?
so i replied that i'll consider

from young my mom had been telling me to be a doctor
i strongly disagree...cuz the way she tells me...it is because of the salary
but only during these few years...she told me that i can also help the needy if i become one
earning enough money in hospitals and can help those who need it outside the hospital
somehow it seems so ''you yi yi''
so maybe...i'll try to be one :D

went for the jubilant concert on 13th
frankly speaking...i quite enjoyed their performance
their music is really....nice
either it's choir or band
their songs and music sort of touched my heart
haha
went to eat with tohmin peichuan and jovin at lau pa sat
spent quite an amount of money
but for good food...who cares?
hehe...

may the dispute end soon
may they be on good terms again
may they stop insulting one another...for fun or for real

wint3rdreamz@9:39 PM
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Sunday, July 09, 2006

went for competition on tues
kinda nervous.but somehow the moment i touched my pistol...i felt weird.
i felt so nervous till im very calm.sounds good isnt it?
shot a personal best of 355
and my team got a silver!
though samantha sort of freaked during the comp
but cuz her score was normally good
so a little drop still manage to get us to silver
:D

think italy is going to win?
they play well...perhaps better than france
but it seems that france is lucky enough to get them to the end--the world cup
i dun take sides...its only a feeling only
x.x

somehow glad that everything is going to go back to normal
no more regular runs to safra for trainin
no more skipping school periods for training or comp
but no matter wat...i enjoyed myself last month
seeing myself improving to a standard i never expect to reach
and my training with my mates is an enjoyable experience
[well...shouldnt i be blogging this in the aisc blog??]

wint3rdreamz@6:41 AM
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

wound under the long time bandage still fresh n raw
...
..
.
dun feel like thinking of the past
dun feel like talking bout it

2 days to competition...yet fell on sports day
skinned my right hand
Great.
skinned my right elbow
Well Done.
just glad that ms.ng din find out...
or she'll be worried sick
however, weiee did.

dunno y.
sort of blocked someone's track during 4x100 event
saw her some time later but just cant bring myself to apologise
haiz...

wondering...
do all guys always have a number of crushes at a same period of time before steadying with some gal?
as in...if he cannot get his ''first choice''
he will still have his ''second choice''...''third choice'' to go after?

wint3rdreamz@7:55 AM
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