::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

it had been so long since i have seriously posted
maybe i will this time

actually i noe its helmi's bdae tday
but somehow i think tt i m not fren enuff with him to even give him a bdae greetin

yesterday was idy n shaam's bdae
too bad shaam dun have a hp
i cant sms him
idy...well...i admit i forgot bout it

i had been clanging to this skin for mths
but i dun feel like changing cuz it does look nice

tmr leh...tmr den say ba

it had been a year like this le
this yr is much tougher than the last
with tortures going on within me physically, emotionally, acadamically n competitively
physically-- actually it happened last yr..but i accounted it to this yr
emotionally-- sth tt i would rather not say ;)
acadamically-- u must admit tt sec 3 is much much more tougher than sec2 isnt it!! more sub...more hw...more weird tchers (haha)...more exams..and obviously...more Stress..
competitively-- e torture of being in 3e1...and me not being able to get into e sch team this yr for a.r

this is rather too short to summarise a year isnt it?
well...think tts not all

the company around me changed
ppl's attitude changed...as mentioned by one of my frens regarding some hidden hatred within a group of guys

wat to say?
i really miss 2e3..haha
when humans r growing up...nth could stopp tt
n one cant help thinking of sth good when things around gets worse
n those good things only happen in e past
(not e bad things now...not e unexperienced in the future...of cuz its e past..lol)

i duno wat is e real motive of starting this entry..
i just kept typing n typing till maple is going to allow me to play

when there is sth bad..there is always sth good
eg...i had met new frens
not tt old ones r not good
new ones r just as good
so good+good=better....isnt it?
i had got on better terms with some of my old frens
ppl like tm, jannice, wy, lr..they r e ppl whom i noe for quite a long time
but had not really been considered on very good terms
now..not bad ar..
made a good friend this yr
though he is pervertic n ... well....should say too much..haha
nice fren...actually..heh
one thing there...at least my old frens had not forgotten me as well
i must admit though i had not been someone who ppl will always call for
but at least if many calls for me once in a while
tt is just as enuff...haha

maple is back...i'll crap more other time..
haha

wint3rdreamz@8:26 PM
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Monday, November 28, 2005

woke up quite late tday..bout 10 +

maple under construction
from midnite yesterday till tmr afternoon
cant play till e 30th ba
so can no nid wake up early for these 2 days
sometimes i would rather train
sometimes i would feel siann
take this chance to have a nice break ba

recently had been havin lessons
the lessons dun seem to go on well
or im too impatient n not v satisfied with my progress

just read min's blog
had not been readin since her post b4 her chalet
was abit shocked la
they had been slping on e same bed
lol..
of cuz..nth happened la
haha

speakin of chalets
maybe goin for lim's chalet this sat
but the rest will be there on fri
n they will leave on sun
i only goin for sat
n leavin tt day as well
tt makes me kinda 'extra'
wat to do?

pc's chalet leh..
hope he'll update asap bout e date of tt
he had been 'not existin' for sm time le
think he'll reply me soon

a white mouse was runnin in my house a few days ago
scared mom like siao
chased it out n it went u again
2 times...duno how
duno how it got into my house as well
(i live on e 9th floor..lol)

wint3rdreamz@6:03 PM
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

o.m.g
y is it always like tt
when i start to look forward to sth
sth bad always happens

so looking forward to tmr's chalet
2e3 de
so long nv gonna enjoy with those ppl i had known 2 yrs ago
suddenly pc msged n said tt it was cancelled
aww.....so sad...kinda disappointed
i dun blame pc
he has his reasons...be it reasonable or stupid ones
to not to reply to us when we made further enquiries shows tt
he is actually quite sorry to bring the bad news
but tt doesnt stop me from being disappointed
looking forward to it
n it was cancelled
awwwww...........

went for trainin tday
trainin in safra from nxt mth onwards seemed more relaxed
a.r de got a few more h of trainin than a.p durin each session
n a.p trainin is kinda more relaxin than a.r ones
i was trusted with e potential
i must make meself a name
(there i go again)
hope its really not empty words n may i be pressure-free durin competition
n i dun mean inter-sch
i mean inter-club...which is...selection la
i get nervous easily even over the smallest competition
n i cant perform well like this
i must learn to relax
relax....relax...relax...
i can do it de..believe in meself...and not to underestimate others
jiayo

now with 2e3 chalet cancelled
i have to go for e other chalet tt lies on e same day
3e1/e2 chalet
but...i dun feel like goin...
i only can have one evenin of e whole hol to be spent out of e house
onnly one evenin leh
tot it can be nicely occupied by my 2e3 frens
den if i got e chance i hope the gatherin can be organised again
i really really wanna...
I Am DeSpErAtE
LoL.
if i find out tt pc is going to e 3e1/e2 gathering
i m goin to Kill HiM....

wint3rdreamz@6:09 PM
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Monday, November 21, 2005

recently din blog alot
not much things to say..

anyway
went trainin today
nxt time mus wear track pants and bring jacket liao
inside soo cold
got e form for safra's term membership frm msng
since when ai so gd liao huh?
i rem last year term membership is we pay one
now e sch even kindly pay when even e sch team is not decided
meanin...alot of ppl gets e form
maybe for a.p de only
cuz safra got spare a.p for ppl to
frm wat i heard
then coach was like sayin our sch v good
buy this buy tt for s.c (shootin club hor)
then i began to think bout t.t again
haiz...sad thing leh

this thurs got chalet..so good
is this conincidence or wat..
how come 3e1/e2 chalet and 2e3 de falls on same day n same place?
must go ask pc liao
he told me tt some 3e1/e2 de comin to e chalet
must find out wat happens
if its a combine
i will not feel quite good about it
lim oso said tt he gonna be anti-social if those 3e1/e2 de were present
hope its dif room ba
far far away de rooms Xp

someone de bdae comin soon liao
duno whether i shld give sth anot
maybe just a greetin will do ba
cuz...in terms of ''give n return''
i shldnt give anything
but...i duno wat to do
c 1st ba

wint3rdreamz@4:32 PM
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Thursday, November 17, 2005

went for tourism meeting yesterday
suppose that is the last meeting for phase 1
of course there will be more meetings
'cause we will be working in PhAsE II!!
haha...thinking too much le ba me...

anyway... completed the proposal finally
thx to our great leader tm
had meeting at wy's house
i was late for meeting
cuz of an errand i had to run for my mom first
then slack abit
suddenly when the leader got up n started to work
almost everyone is working
haha
then surprising completed the proposal
tm left early and the rest finished the introduction
hope the proposal would be accepted and of cuz take us into phase 2...
though there'll be more work la..hahaha

went training after tt
left laptop at wy's house
range was reall cold~~
saw some guys bullying little pri sch kids
haha
went back to collect back
she was nice
helped me pack e stuffs up

bs n eddy r goin to play jms
so sian...2 pros givin up aquila
ben wouldve gone off as well...but his com cannot run e game
so good...can du tun e two acc
lol...

wint3rdreamz@2:22 PM
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

went for a short meetin at mc's yesterday
din make alot of progress...
haiz...me forgotten bout researchin
so sry

find abit like no contribution to e group
must do smthing bout it
personally think go ther c c better
but...is there any time for tt?

so base on e info on net i hope i can help as much as possible
8-10 pages of proposal
must finish!

bout these few days wat i had been doin...
e only think i can say is...i enjoy my mornings n my trainings
tts all...

wint3rdreamz@10:02 AM
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

went to sch at 0930 today
e coach see see our arms...den rise it up n rise it down
officially can go home liao..
""
haiz..since spent time n money to go sch
mite as well train abit
startin shoot...like sht
bullets fly all over e paper
(pardon a 1st-timer for a.p)
then later e last card...20 shots
all within e 6 marks!
omg...so shocked
both coaches said tt i have potential for a.p
i really hope so...i wanna go for sch team nxt yr de!!

reached home at 1
yuan ben thinkin of since able to go out...
mite as well go play smwhere
but...since i duno where to go n i was like ZzZ
go home n slp lorx

trainin tmr
got tourism meetin at 8am in e mornin
so wake up at 5 n pia 2h+ lorx
hmm...think meetin will end round 10+
got 2h+ to kill b4 1pm trainin
how?

jiayoz for my a.p
i really wanna get a name for meself
duno y but its just so
:D

wint3rdreamz@12:54 AM
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Saturday, November 05, 2005

went to partyworld wid tm wy jan lr yesterday
nto a bad place..
but whereever place with service charge is always meant to be an ex one...i realised.
k...14+ each
okok la...
actually quite ok for ktv
but tt day expectations r higher
tot it'll be damn cheap
e discount cheated us again
*sigh*

sing quite alot of songs
got real high at songs like ''yi fu zhi ming'' n ''tuo diao''
even e endin song ''wan mei de yi tian''
lol
there was really freezing
so e singin was kinda ''vibratin''
sounds nicer eh?
perhaps so..lol

no reason y lr keeps sayin her singin's bad when it was quite good

got unhappy with e waiter...with e charges
me keep suggestin ways to irritate e waiter
eg...service call him while singing ''yi fu zhi ming''
den go scream e ''ah!!'' part damn loud to him

went straight home after tt at round 6
bought abit things for today's bkf as well

wed's ''wang zhi bian qing wa''
e endin part...wat shan junhao said to yue tian yu is kinda nice
''wo tao yan ni...ying xiang wo de shen huo''
''wo tao yan ni...dao luan wo de si xiang''
''wo tao yan ni...luan le wo de xing tiao''
''wo tao yan ni...yi zhi chu xian zai wo nao li''
''wo tao yan ni...bu gei wo ji hui wang le ni''
sth like tt...kinda nice ^^

yesterday got 6 more FmA frm jan
nice nice
started e 4th book rite after reached home
was kinda touched at e beginnin
how much edward was afraid tt his little bro would hate him
then his bro was like hatin his elder bro for another reason
it was a big misunderstandin
somehow its really touchin
dun believe em go read lorx
Xp

was lyin to benjamin bout my %
i dun wanna tell him my true progress
in case he got ToO motivated and got too fast
so let him relax of bit..haha
but he still so kang jiong..how?

wint3rdreamz@11:59 PM
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

finally...finally!!
all e exams of e year r OvEr!
gonna go crazy...wooo~~!!

had cl paper for o' yesterday
argh...so bu fu qi
study all e words for two days straight mornin afternoon nite
only come out 2 words tt i noe how to write!!
argh argh...study so much only tt 4 marks...
ahh...!!

thursday and friday went for stock challenge
e first day is more of a lesson
which means...kinda boring
then everyone have to design and create a brokerage firm for themselves in the 2nd day
in groups of three
uh oh...groupin problem
actually jan tm and lr are together de
then they so nice...decided to split into 2s
then grab a guy each and form a team
haha so nice
so...tm n jan n bs
lr n yl n me

actually...everyone was quite unenthu bout e 2nd day
cuz got alot of preparation for it
for my group...lr was doin particularly everything
omg...so tyty

but who noes...e 2nd day is even more funn
we were really doin e market..
buyin stocks...sellin etc..
our group made a great mistake
someone forgot to buy certain stock tt is makin money
in the end we dun even have a chance of buyin it cuz it is sold out
lol..din noe got such thing
in e end din earn much
but nvm...it was really fun anyway

got back my report slip
lost to someone again!!
she got e unlucky no.13
me leh...behind her lorx
nvm...next yr..next yr...she'l get it..
hehehe

so shuang...so slacking
hols le
all exams over le
(for this yr..hehe)
gonna do all the things i wanna
and most importantly realise the compromise i have for myself since last yr
I MuSt LeArN To SwIm!!
think im going to learn long...
till...v far v far...
i have e D..for determination..!
haha

nobody may understand..
but for a person who nearly drowned once
learnin to swim is so important for me...

wint3rdreamz@7:38 AM
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