::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

so much hardship ended
half the fun ended too
nj108 had presented our project this morning
n proudly handed up our 'blood and sweat' at around 10.30am

this is the end.
bye PW! :D

freed. freed. freed. finally. :)

jiayou for the others for their op
n to the J2s and sec4s: jiayou X infinity for ur a's and o's!

wint3rdreamz@11:19 PM
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Monday, October 29, 2007

wa, glad tt i din stay up late last nite to finish studying the chapts.
comprehension came up 'mi4 feng1 de zhan4 mei3', which is the first chapt i've studied.
haha.
and i had so much energy, i finished my compre within 1 h
without checking cuz i nid to complete my bloody compo

had good food for the past 3 days
in malacca and today too
mc student's meal in the morning n pastamania in the afternoon today
yumm!

i worsened my InR
lols
'infamous' is 'notorious' n does not mean 'not famous'
-.-

kudos to mich for the painting of the shirts
too bad they cant be worn during op

polyclinic closed at 4.30pm and i reached there at 5
so went to private clinic
blehhhh... spent 20 on consultation and 25 on vaccination
nvm, since the doctor seems so nice, and allow me to pay 35 before returning tmr to pay the 10
haha...

wint3rdreamz@8:36 PM
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Friday, October 26, 2007

off to msia from today till sunday
going to mug chinese there anyway Xl

din get to add points for my VA :(
cuz i have only got 7/25 for my previous essay test

OP Dry Run 2 on wed was kinda bad for me
yea. ms.m.ang decided to act serious and did a great job
when i was presenting i kept like eh, looking at her n nodding my head
but somehow she din respond at all :(
den perhaps i had a lack of confidence or sth becuz of tt
haha
e funny thing is, after the whole process, including the Q&A
she suddenly sighed with relief and said: im glad this is over, it's hard to act serious and stern u noe.
haha
usually she's this sweet-looking tcher who smiles a lot.

n ya, can anyone teach me how to pronounce 'public' properly?

OGL interview on wed afternoon
wa i think i answered dam badly
even the councilor who interviewed me finds me to be too nervous
:(
partially becuz the guy who answered before me answered almost all of wat im going to say
den i bo bian have to think of sth else on spot again.
hai, not his fault, he's just this excellent speaker with a v high GPA of 3.7sth. lol Xl

n omg omg, somehow i just got to go for yltc.
lol. peixin couldnt make it (maybe cuz she's going overseas or sth)
n asked me to sub her, haha.
went for a briefing yesterday
it's like kind of a coincidence.
tammy (pae classmate), melissa (xps classmate), valerie (first-3-days-og mate and now my chinese classmate) and victor (my IU comm head) are all in the same group as me!
n there's this kinda cute-looking gal who usually hangs around a few tables away from my class's in the canteen is oso in my group..
(eh no im not les, but she's really cute n in my opinion kinda sweet-looking tt i cant help but to notice her. Xp)
i had always tot her name is wanzhen den only during the meeting i realised it's actually allysa
lol -.-

wat's more surprising is, mom and dad just accepted like almost immediately
and allowed me to go for the camp just like tt
lol... :)
usually if i have to go for stuffs whereby i have to stay overnight
we will always have a row (or more than one)
my dad would keep insisting why i have to slp outside when u r in sg n u have a home to rest in.
n ya da ya da..
tt's y i never stay overnight for camps and chalets if i can help it
to avoid quarreling with them.

alrite, full gear for ao chinese.

wint3rdreamz@7:41 AM
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Monday, October 22, 2007

ok, under lihui's demand Xp :

XIAO LI HUI, LAOREN AI NI!!

:D

wint3rdreamz@9:03 PM
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no 4h2 for me :(

no, i have not given up hope yet,
im still trying very hard to get to know why i got only 4.5 for my VA
when everyone else gets more than 6.
i want to know, not entirely because i wanna push my econs from a 38 overall to 40+
but i dun wanna it to be that because of some error in calculation or something
that results my VA to be only 4.5, which leads to me having only 38 overall.
so no, i wun wanna insist to mrs.lew that i desperately need that 2 marks,
i dun need her sympathy if i really deserve an U grade for my econs.

but nevertheless, i have to be prepared by the fact that i might have to drop my econs from h2 to h1
which i really, really dun wan it to happen.

this will result in:
change of class (no joannah and yc and some other really nice ppl)
no h3 (regardless if i get to remain 4h2 or not, i'll still not get it)
no EAGLES (my $150 gone!)
no being an OGL (that's very hard to say..)
less(or even no) chance to get into NUS medicine

but, looking on the brighter side
i've passed the other 5 subjects
which is like a super great improvement as compared to common test
n i am officially promoted! :D
this is really, really good enough.

thx alot to those who helped in a way or another.
to JOANNAH: u r the sweetest. thx for ur pat, ur smile, ur msg n the passing me of the tissue.
to YC: thx for the tissue n the pen and the calculator (lol that's random). but most importantly, thx for ur ignorance cuz u somehow noe that is wat i needed the most, more than consoles, concerns and words of encouragement. (or maybe u just dunno what to say so you din;t say anything, haha)
to BG: thx for staying behind while i looked for mrs.lew and tried to stay behind while i looked for mrs.khoo cuz of her miscalculation. and yea for your "now you know why njc only has president scholars up to only 97" (watver. :P)
to someone (forgot who but i think is JY): for your 'wtf'. not sure why it relieved me a bit, but perhaps cuz u were like scolding something out loud that i wanna scold. (thank goodness you din say the word f***, otherwise i mite get more agitated by the sound of the word and punch u or sth Xp)
thx to the others in the range who are happy, u made me feel much better.
though i did rant abit and throw a little temper on ZR (sorry ZR! n.n)

yes, people say that to make yourself not to regret, you will say that you have tried your best.
but no, i would rather think that i have not tried my best and regret.
cuz it means that well, there's still room for improvement, and is a lot more than to those who have really tried their best.
yes, i mugged like i have never mugged.
but no, i did not really last to the end. i was less hardworking as exams approached very very close, and worst still, i din't try to answer like i'll die not answering properly; i give up answering rather easily.
sad, but i'll jiayou jiayou de!
Alevels i'll pwwwwwnnn u!
;)

wint3rdreamz@8:11 PM
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Sunday, October 21, 2007

my heart's thumping
really fast
even faster than it was thumping the day before i receive my o levels results.

><

wint3rdreamz@11:36 PM
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i wan it back into my room
i wan it back into my room
i wan it back into my room
soon!

having the com in the living room gives me no privacy at all :(
mom reprimanded me when i was watching anime...lol.
n dad's like probing me when i was watchin sp
cartman was like saying "karl's gonna s*** my balls...s*** my balls"
repeatedly..lol...

considering today's the 21stoct,
8 more days man
to end of ao chinese
n 9 more days till my op
first day first slot at 9.30 lol
[anyone has any idea who's doing audience duty on 30/11 at 9.30 at ta12 tell me can?]
n after tt i can haha at the rest who has yet to have their op by then XD

im scared
of mon. :(

wint3rdreamz@12:48 AM
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Thursday, October 18, 2007

im finally moulting
n it's really itchy tt i just wanna peel the dead skin out myself
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wa im amazed how much ive improved for my op
no, maybe it's because there's only ms.m.ang in the classroom
haha
im still reading off the script
but at least not as afraid to speak

the range is back to life today
nice.

im going to really murder a certain ho if he's going to swear again
he's freaking me out, lol.

~~now i noe y light shit likes jeremy~~
[haha im only JOKING :D]
he, in my opinion, has matured [or is alrdy matured but i duno?]
n is a caring n concerning apb towards the other apb-s

hmm. maybe i shouldnt take the relationship thing too seriously
the previous post was edited cuz i realised tt person i was mentioning has a 'change of heart'
haha... no dun take tt phrase seriously...i noe it still hurts to leave a person u have loved for so long
but when things r falling apart, to keep stopping things from falling is kinda hard
i was only surprised cuz i din noe so much changed in ur life
within a month's time? haha...
n maybe u enlightened me
tt it is not necessary for a relationship to last

不在乎天长地久；只在乎曾经拥有
isn't tt wat i have always told myself 2 yrs ago?
haha...

wint3rdreamz@11:09 PM
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

y the tactics, y the effort
when u can end it so fast, so easily?
it's like e D&V relationship, though ur's end much later

u were so proud of ur ability of winning her heart
n months later, it's just 'haha, we broke'.

too many broken relationships ive seen n heard
[editted]: it's getting really depressing.

listening to emo songs at late nite is not rite for me
it'll just make me think of sad things happening around me, intensively.

where is the long-lasting love?
hard-to-find, i'll say.

n there comes the broken hearts
usually belonging to the venus beings.

perhaps this is not the rite time
for a true lasting relationship yet?

wint3rdreamz@1:24 AM
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

there's nothing to lose; but we must strive for excellence nevertheless.
this is v similar to wat mark has been discussing bout with a few days ago
he was trying to make me understand the thing bout mr.g.lee telling me to aim high for my scores [which i cant believe in] sometime before nationals.

he said one has to aim high, try hard n if u really din attain it, u wun regret cuz u have tried ur v best.
a few hours later tt day, when i was bout to accept wat he was trying to say, i suddenly tot of this: he gave up during his last series during monthly shoot, resulting in a 70+ series.
fag, so much for the advice. so true yet he cant live up to it.
well i guess i have to be more understanding to his feelings then n tt i cant just jump into conclusions.

only after today, i realise wat was missing in mark's words.
yea, his words mentioned bout striving for excellence, but the nth to lose part is missing.
he put it in the way tt since my standards is stagnant n hard to drop, i shouldnt be afraid of losing. [which is kinda different from wat mr.r.heah meant]

n yea...mr.r.heah oso made me realise sth else
i was talking to him bout the internals monthly thing
bout needing new cards n stuffs
so he was going on with e 'no nid a vernier caliper just to measure the width of a door when a measuring tape will do'
n 'y nid to buy an lp10 when our standards dun require such good pistol'
ok...so y nid new cards when the purpose of the shoot is just to keep track of their standards?
i can always get new ones when the nid to really stimulate a real competition where precision is really necessary [near nationals period]
n there's sth bout the peak of a person's performance in a period of time.
he advised me to consult the pe tchers regarding this matter n yea...i hope it'll be really helpful in helping the shooters perform at their peak during nationals :)

my dad's kidding
to think tt i'll be able to take A380 to sydney this nov during overseas comp

i guess, everyone wans a person who he/she likes and can really love.
but also a person who can understand and gives his/her alot of time without being together (aka freedom time..lol)

wint3rdreamz@10:38 PM
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alright, 3 comprehensions here i come
like now. -.-

at least i have finished my speech for op n proposed activity for njcsc
[it's really lol...even rationale, limitations etc is included! lol...]

sam's lucky, got eddie to start helping her out today
just like me last yr, when my fan was not around too
she's super nervous in the beginning but all ended well i guess
haha :)

wint3rdreamz@12:14 AM
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Friday, October 12, 2007

thx ms.chong n ms.s.ang so much so much for rewriting my referee letters!
[cuz i lost the first ones they wrote for me :(]
n thx joe too for sacrificing her bkf n lunch time to help me look for the first copy n accompany me to do the 2nd one :))

will there be any more chance when the 4 of us can train tgt?
:)

<3! lihui n amanda r backk!

oh my tiannsss! 5 chinese compre so be completed by next tues
supersenior meet up + capt/vc meeting tmr
n pw finalising wr on sun!
oya not to forgot chem n math hw as well..
>< !!

wint3rdreamz@11:46 PM
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Thursday, October 11, 2007

humpty dumpty had a great fall :(
all 4 limbs kena lol

luckily mom has yet to realise tt
or she;ll definitely scream.

my op's super lousy
esp in front of strangers.
gonna practice, practice, practice

wint3rdreamz@8:08 PM
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

the ULTIMA - 10 10s in a 10 ring
[fyi: it's shot with a pistol 10 m away]

regretted training today; mom's super pissed
though i shot like three 94s n one 93 out of six cards [according to mark]

met shaam n my pri sch fren [forgot the name oO] on mrt today.
it's a kinda nice feeling, to hear my pri sch fren remembered me as someone who owned everyone in math in pri sch when i cant even rmb anything lidat :P

ps: thx lol...i was unfortunately once insulted as a 'second-hand'

wint3rdreamz@8:52 PM
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Tuesday, October 09, 2007

happy birthday (tomorrow) dyed hair jannice!
had a nice dinner at sakura
n had a second round at home :)

yo jy, i duno how im going to communicate with u
u r always bz with pw tt msn n sms wun work i guess..haha...
[meanwhile i dun seem to be so bz...i feel kinda guilty n weird oO]
so i'll just write it here, till u r free to read this:
*haha...noe tt u'll rant bout ur first training
cuz i din enjoy mine too ;)
*u have over estimated urself le ba...dun expect urself to get back to ur standard just in 1 training after u have not trained for so long? (dun even think of getting close to it, so u have done quite well alrdy le :))
*just in case u duno, gai (guy) is the nyt apm coach, fan (female) is the nyt apw coach; they r actually husband n wife..haha [ok tt's v random]
*i must express my bewilderment that gai actually spoke to u more than i have ever seen him speaking to abel or mark oO
*dun expect training to be the same in nyt as the sch's. their responsibility is to train u into a international shooter.
*though it is so, but the coaches r actually v nice n kinda interesting ppl
*haha where's ur patience? dry-firing's for u to get back into ur momentum without using pellets, u wun be asked to do tt much again i guess...
*LP1, is an interesting kind of pistol. if u like it, u will really like it :D

haha tt's it...i think tt's all i wanna say
quite random i guess...
but perhaps u'll feel more comfortable after some time..haha :)

okay..back to o-pee :(

wint3rdreamz@10:38 PM
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Monday, October 08, 2007

.
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omg omg im so stunned!
thx man though my nick din mean much

wint3rdreamz@11:33 PM
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HAPPY FELI; HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
gen bought like 2 tubs of island creamery ice creams
determined to make feli fat
haha

had a tough time getting the wr draft ready for ms.ang
not tt we took a long time to finish editing
but took a long time trying to print it out -.-
freak, din realise wat labeling the pages of the report has done
the pages of the wr became from only 43 pages to 'pages that increases exponentially' [max says]
well at first tot it;s e laptop prob or thumbdrive prob
den saved n saved, copied n pasted, student lounge to bytes, here n there, delayed n delayed the dateline[actually it's time-line]
finally the prob is found out, canceled the page count thingy n printed it out normally
phew.

oops. din go for scheme today
left sch at like 5.30 lol

but tmr no sch
ahh...so i should go for training, den go for scheme [which is at st theresa convent], n birthday dinner at np?
omg la... it's like yishun to tiong bahru to yishun again
alright..lol...

wint3rdreamz@10:20 PM
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Sunday, October 07, 2007

nyt oct monthly: 87 92 90 90 359
yea it's quite bad la
poor organisation and mindset once again
n a bad start as well
wanna mention one funny during e shoot
shot a 7 during the last series
den after the last few shots were 10 10 9 10..
i really like felt a jolt through me when i shot tt 7
when my concentration just suddenly goes off when i fire
haha...after tt i felt more energetic n stuff..lol..
n shot those 10s n 9s

hey my fren here;
even when u r angry n in a bad temper
pls do try to listen to wat ur frens is trying to say to console or encourage u ok?
e words they say to u r not meant to be bounced off u by retorting without thinking
n it'll be dam pissing if u went overboard n throw ur temper on ur frens instead
yea u r angry, u r disappointed, u mite even hate urself for all i noe
but we dun ok?
u urself have tried consoling before..n u got back the respond 'shutup'
do u like it?
anw, the whole pt is not bout u shouldnt throw ur temper on us
but to open ur ears n mind to listen, n when u do so, im sure u'll feel tons better
hao bu hao?

safra armoury has renovated
now got this downstairs is rifles, upstairs is pistols kinda thing
so the rifles r like rite below the pistols; drawer style
so cool eh...n so much spacious n organised than the previous rifles by the wall, pistols in the center style
e only sad thing is tt we now have to stoop to get our pistols
haha...but quite interesting la haha

wint3rdreamz@2:39 AM
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Saturday, October 06, 2007

the template for posts in blogger looks strange
or is it my server or watever?

today(friday), i:
soccer-ed
chinese-ed
tennis-ed
pw-ed
attempted tutoring

soccer was fun...it started off alright n relaxed
but as the matches gets more n more challenging...the dark looks on everyone faces
well maybe i think too much haha
after the last game,
i had my shoulder patted by some of the ips n my teammates
for being rammed by the ball i guess -.- n being rammed twice
well..not tt i like being rammed or anything...
just tt 1. i happened to be in front of the scorer
2. i wanna tackle the ball from him n
3. the scorer decided to score, hard, without warning
haha..it's like back to sec sch...i was zham-ed quite alot of times oso
but seriously, i dun enjoy tat. haha :)

skipped lunch for chinese
(haha im wei da ba :D)

duno wassup with joe n me
got like 5 tennis balls out of the court Xp

meet-the-teacher session
we ended up asking ms.ang qns bout op which is "not wat u all should be concerned bout"
like: will the audience look fierce? or will they laugh if we were to crack a joke?

ok...at least clear a teeeny bit of monkey's doubts
woah im teaching....math...! woohoo :)

aw i should be slping!
nyt monthly at 9.50am!

wint3rdreamz@1:28 AM
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Friday, October 05, 2007

apparently my internet hates me..alot
think it had DC-ed n AC-ed for more than 5 times today
it's tt bloody wireless thingy my bro installed into my com
so that it'll his main com tt holds e router, not mine :(

well at least it's obedient for the time being

alright, have been training these 2 days :))
it's really great (eh not the performance, but to hold up my pistol tt shoots out pellets :)...tt's great enough)
n have been talking to some of the ppl there
made me understood things tt i had not been able to

firstly it's my coach
i talked to her bout performance n stuff, and asked her if i were to crash horribly for months wat would she do
well...her ans gave me the conclusion tt when u r at ur downs, dun totally depend on ur coaches to pull u back
cuz it's ur performance, u r responsible for it
a coach can only stand at the side, giving u reminders and tips to help u on ur way
but in the end if u were to fall, it'll be up to u to pick up on ur own

yea i dread falling (tt's y i asked bout tt), n i had tot nationals was a great fall for me but in the end it's nth at all compared to others
i tot i have failed, so i decided to start anew,
n well..i got back to my standard shortly after
it's really...nth...compared to others...im feel like a ding li zi wa

secondly..it's mr eddie lim (thurs)
hmm i must admit i was abit harsh to him when i started to talk to him (sorry sorry n.n)
cuz i was abit well...not happy tt he din send any pistol boys to shoot the upcoming comp in australia
i was thinking... it's not like there isnt any place, since it;s vacant y not let any 3 go rather than none?
i have asked him tt question on wed
n he replied tt: hit only 527 u think i can send?
in addition..i was thinking bout the ntt selection issue on the forum
and the condition he had given to abel n mark n perhaps isaac?
another guy has alrdy stopped training...duno cuz he gave up or he's bz
n yea...so all this added up to the unhappiness i had with him as the head of nyt
but after talking to him it just felt different
the thing bout duties n responsibilities, not only applies to shooters, it also applies to team managers too
he seemed to noe im unhappy; thus he said: not tt i dun wanna send em, but if anyone happened to ask y, how m i going to ans?
i still have doubts bout the first part
but i must noe tt team managers have a great responsibility too
not to himself, but to the superiors n (perhaps) other shooters in sg
n as he is not able to understand every single member of the team, performance is the only gauge he has

all these made me realise sth else too
tt it's really hard to stand in everyone's shoes (though im really trying, tt's y i talked to them in the first place)
n it's harder to make everyone happy

cant go training today i guess
got to "tutor" monkey after sch
tt is, if im not going to be the one scratching my head, not able to come up with the solution Xl
n i have chinese consolidation n pw meet-the-teacher session tmr! :(

wint3rdreamz@2:19 AM
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Tuesday, October 02, 2007

it's over...over....NAH.

i think i have lots more to do now tt exams r over (taken place from now till end of year)

1. training! :DD
2. complete the interact scheme
3. join soccer (MAYBE ah)
4. facebook (yea zr n fiona have asked me to)
5. retake swimming
6. join lifesaving course and pass them
7. get a lifeguard job after that
8. learn tennis
9. relearn dota
10. get back to maple story
11. get ttc ppl to play tabletennis
12. outings/gatherings
13. training program for APG
14. catch up with all the anime i've missed :)
15. read lotr n artemis fowl

haha din noe there's so much till i've listed em out

but besides tt i shan't forget bout the important matters

watever SPAs
WR :(
OP :((
chinese ao levels

i realised i have left blanks for all the papers from last wed till now (except for chinese)
n the blanks add to up more than 20% for each subject :(
pls let me pass...let me pass..!
n may all others pass everything too...! :D

wint3rdreamz@10:22 PM
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bio is not for someone tt has only 1mb of memory space (cant even fit in half a bio ppt slide)
n yea..bio's not for me

ive studied lots...but my brain feels empty

n chapt of cancer is not yet covered

i can just say die before the exam itself

sigh*

wint3rdreamz@12:31 AM
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Monday, October 01, 2007

realised i have taken down sth weird during lecture long ago
duno it;s me or is tt really the ans from the ppt

Haemophilia
....it is a severe condition in which the blood of the individual takes an adnormally long time to clot....as a result, profuse and prolonged bleeding occurs even from minor knocks and wounds....

....

summary:
-sex-linked recessive characteristic are more frequent in males. why?
ans:
1.this is because males need only one copy of the defective allele to suffer from haemophilia whereas females require two copies of the defective allele to be a sufferer
2.moreover, female haemophiliacs normally die of bleeding when they reach puberty

ok,it's true la...but...it's just.. crude?

alright...well...4 more chapts to go
doubt i'll finish em with my turtle speed of 3-4h per chapt
i still have to eat n bath n everything...

o yea...today's 1st of oct
HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
haha Xp

n it's 1 day left :DD

wint3rdreamz@1:53 AM
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