::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Thursday, April 28, 2005

juz like wat mugilan said
alot of strange stuffs happened today
skipped mt
change frm pe to uni den to pe den to uni Agn

e councillors rushed back to class for pe
mayer n shuan changed in da class
rite in front of e other councillors n me
jr went to toilet
shut da door for e other three gals who changed in da class
den key kena stuck
so suay...

missed da tie
worn it today

shaam kena caught by mrfong eatin at da stairs
after recess saw da guys writin rude words bout him on da board
e floor as well

siaochi kena scoldin frm mslow
she wrote smthing on paper
m.low saw it...tried pullin it out
den she pushed her hand away
gave her 'att' looks

had chinese oral today
juz as bad as yesterday

bfore tt played vball
after tt went play fball

yesterday duno qiao or wat
oral topic on 'ur fav walk'
den heard da song "tell me" by wilber at nite

fullin understood e feelins of tt song by yida

wint3rdreamz@7:30 PM
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

had eng oral
first time takin oral w/o much stress
good thing...can tok beta smhow
it csme to my turn so fast
were sittin at da back wid e ppl
test at da front
sad cant hear anythin
was eatin janice's chewin gum
den heard my name
so fast?
den realised im e third one actually
haha
wasted one chewin gum in e dustbin

had listenin compre as wel
so hard
fail le la

idy's tie kena confiscated
cuz her attire
her hair
appreciate ur chance gal
u got e chance to be councillor mus appreciate

saw jason teachin jj amaths
he himself dun really noe how to do da sum actually
have to work it out for him
den he teach jj
haha

stress-free
duno y

start countdown
38 days...*

wint3rdreamz@8:08 PM
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Monday, April 25, 2005

went shoppin today...with e guys..lol
initially tot of seeing anything for lim
vj was tokin to anye whether want to go shoppin or not
asked tay as well
i tot...
tay was abit not willin
den anye said "singhui also goin ar...go la..."
i was surprised...i tot i wasnt welcomed...luckily..haha
den was trying to ask jj...he got off his remedial
lim went along
plannin to go np de...den cuz tay say dun wan....so go cp
duno wat's e dif lol
say np too small...wan go suntec?lol

went round there for quite sm time
anye bought 3 wrist bands--$2.20 each...
dif color wid e word pride
he dun dare go tt shop at first de
scared saw mr f....lol
den i accompany him den he dare go buy..haha
vj more siao
go buy pencil which cost...$7.90??
duno wat's so gd bout e pencil
got duno wat centre of gravity to provide ease in writin n e other craps
physics sia
try balancin e pencil at it's so-called cg...not balanced de

those guys...haiz
tot of buyin a electronic pig for jason
den was thinkin...giv him one damn big box stuffed of newspaper
after he open wid difficulty n c nth
den take out e present n giv him...haha

went eat...wishy washy ppl
decided to settle at one place after strollin 'round for half hour?
den went home

durin class funny sae
ms p was tellin us bout irc thingy
said tt her fren 50+ went irc actin young
den got one guy asked her whether she a, b or c
she tot he meant her grades
answered "mostly 'a' but smtimes can drop to 'c' "
but actually e guy asked for her cup size...yucks
wat would happen if she said "i always fail"?

tt smone gave me a bad impression today
durin pw...azrin went sch dna...saw tt guy typed sm "words tt r too formal to be use"
juz because smone offend him
heard he even put links to porn sites in e fourm...omg

tot my parents were e only damn worried ones
yuan lai yl's ones r oso somethin lidat...

wint3rdreamz@7:15 PM
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

wkend endin...so fast..?
haven studied a bit yet...hw uncompleted
too many things goin 'round in e hse...in my mind as well
there's tis lonely guy here...an active one there...another one smwhere else deep
influencin my life to a certain extent (sounds like ss dun it?)

yesterday saw a xiao qiang
he-who-flew-in-through-e-window
disappeared smwhere in e shelves
re-appeared onto my table frm above me...eeks!!
i wun mind cockroaches on e floor...cuz it had it's limits--360 degrees horizontally
but those flyin ones...360' horizontally n vertically n diagonally...>.<

gonna tel tt guy i have a crush...yepz...so he'll give up i think
anyway im not lying...understand tt shurlene?

tis wk considered exam started
wed got listenin, eng oral...thurs got chinese oral
gonna wash my mouth n ears damn hard...haha

bout 1 wks to real exams n i still cant feel e tension
wat to do?

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for shurlene...

wint3rdreamz@10:52 AM
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

almost one wk le...damn sian...

exams cumin le...still stuck 'round a`maths...been teachin fren tis sub but i nid help myself actually...haha
bio seems to have soo many things to rem
physics have lots of formula to apply 'round
chem seems easier but nowhere easy
ss still practisin on writin gd ans...gd thing i had mr h as my temp. ss tcher
he's quite not bad...the thing is he noes how to teach well
geo keep freakin out...no idea how to ans a qn...sad
other subs r ok...juz tryin hard to make sure tt i wun be kicked out of 3e1...

one muz have seen gals sittin 'round lookin at guys
wld u tink tt it's funny if it's e other way round?

started readin comics...at e wrong time

found out there was a guy who i nv noe had liked for sm time le
he said he had saw me at e sec 1 camp
eh?
until recently cuz of e life-sci thingy i get to noe him
den he told me
really surprised

gd luck to evryone in ur mid yr

frens r meant to have fun wid...not to have att wid

evryone's changed...esp e guys
did i change too?

juz cant forget...a few mths le still cant let go...mu

wint3rdreamz@3:56 PM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

if u can have sm1 beside u
n be able to be beside e certain sm1 w/o e tot tt
'm i disturbin her?'
it would be so great
in my pri school days im always wid dora
we were like..best frens
do evrythin together
paired wid each other always w/o hesitation
played pokemon cards together
have most fun wid her
nowadays...i feared e words 'pair up'
cuz wherever i m, when there's pairin up
im either alone or pairin up wid dif ppl evrytime
y?cuz i nid to c who's remainin for me to pair up wid mah
im willin to pour my soul into a sm1
but if e sm1's not willin to pour his/her soul to u...e feelin isnt there
u mite not feel like doin it again
i've tried bfore...n tt person juz dun trust me v much
e mistrust made me so disappointed
it doesnt really matter
but e thing is e words 'best fren' it can only refer to a single soul
if u wanna define a person as a best fren
of coz e person muz treat u as one too isnt it?
pity i still cant find such a person in tis sch
maybe my personality juz arnt gd enough
i duno...
u can have a whole world of gd frens
but wat's e use if u cant find The one n only best fren...who c u as The one n only best fren too?

bie shuo dui bu qi
shi ni rang wo shang le xin cai shuo bu shi gu yi
wo que wu fa guai ni...
blame me all u wan
u r suppose to blame me
or ur kind character simply stopped u frm doin tis?

bein too influenced by this loneliness
lack of wat i ve mentioned above
but it's not rite to partner other's best fren
i feel juz like a third party
or is it ok to be in threes?
juz like merlyn suzhen n me?

jan's 'crazy' bout soccer
she rarely resist to kick a ball in sight
but when i asked her if she wanna play wid e guys she said "hur?dun wan la"
u tink it's easy to find gals to play soccer?

achievement day...shoook!

edwin is a gd helper
-he offered me my jacket n pants when i nid to wear em
-he offered me water to drink
-he helped me keep my items volunteeringly
-he is v enthu
-he tried to help me carry all my stuffs from e range to e startin places
i believe e other two were great too
n all e performers as well
cool

e concert was nice...it's juz tt e lightin during e performance of e musical groups ia abit too bright
no atmosphere sial

nice dn

hope tt i could go for the camp...*sigh*

SmiLe sh.be positive n evrything will be fine

wint3rdreamz@8:42 AM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

fri is achievement day...lookin forward to it
evryone is goin to perform well de...whether it's e parade, drill or e nite concert
really lookin forward to it

those goin cdans gd luck!
may u guys shoot ur best on sat!

apologises to my classmates for cumin later den usually these to days
i've been spendin my early mornin of these two days doin e presentation for ss
qing duo duo yuan liang (",)

like e feelin of bein able to use two tables
hehs...not tt i dun like mugilan to sit beside me
juz a dif feelin...c?
den i can put my hw on his table...takin it to do when there were no tchers

13th is my lucky day...haha
shurlene's as well (",)
we played so well...im so proud of myself...n tm too
hehe...v lame bahz
if only nxt mth 13th oso tt lucky
exam period mah

all i wish is a perfect frenship...wid evryone...

wint3rdreamz@7:37 PM
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Saturday, April 09, 2005

duno y juz cannot blog...till today

tis wk is beta i tink...less hw (",)

been busy for achievement day...both upstairs(hall) n downstairs(parade square)
stil considerin whether i shld change me shirt into sch-u after e performance on tt day
e rehearsal for e arc drill was gettin beta...but bcuz we hav limited direction we can shoot evrything have to be planned again
so in e end e final plan gets rather dull
but i insisted on retainin e shootin patterns...e others juz listened to ms n bout juz shoot once n tt's it
i noe they wanna e pattern de...cuz e idea was originally theirs
but den they dun wan to tok too much ba
one of em even said "u argue wid ms n oso no use de"
our original plan is startin to get well...but juz becuz of tt arrangement we'll have to cut down almost Evrythin?
tt's crappy...luckily ms n accept my request in e end

mingsheng said tt ms t is biased to 3e1 cuz she only gave tt porn ra1 bio wksht to my class n not 3e2 n 3e4
lol
den he said it doesnt really matter cuz e breasts r 'burnt'
...
yl tot tt pic 'e' of tt wksht is breast
put down tt ans on e wksht
unluckily ms t was referin to his wksht to go through
kena scolded by her
shaam said tt "it's too dark...it's too dark" bout tt woman on e wksht
-perverts-
shaam haiz...kena influenced by zb

heard shaam became spl
wonder how qh thinks

went out early at 7+ to meet up wid tm n jan for tm's tri-touch thingy
tot it's an exhibition..but actually it is presentation of projects done by sm other sch n other stuffs
n e buffet is v delicious too (",)
but on e other hand too bad cannot go play wid e guys

got e exam timetable yesterday
tot evry sub is gonna be tested on separate days...mei xiang dao
v v sad... ):

wint3rdreamz@2:36 PM
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Sunday, April 03, 2005

finally can use e com le...hehe

2moro got health screenin...muz rem to bring health bklet

last wk...haiz...okok...
flunked myself totally during e speech day rehearsel
those who were there would noe...like faeces
n also bcuz of tt i realised...actually i had extreeemmellyy low EQ
muz learn how to control my temper more...though i did control by not scolding those helpers tt day
but not enough lahz...haiz...
im abit sad...tt i din take things to hand
ms ng said she would find e juniors who would help us
but until then she had not got any for us
if i were to take responsibility...i would have find them myself
then let them have an idea wth we r doin
mayb it'll prevent such stupid things happenin on thurs...cuz sm helpers r frm n`land n they did not have any idea wat we were doin
even xiuqi oso tell me to juz wait for ms ng to find those ppl...y?
i tot councillors r...forget it...

sat at my table n stared in blank space for sm time yesterday
recalled the episode of xin rulai shen zhang
how e gal rejected the guy when they had gone through so much to get together
hmm...not tt the gal is in the wrong
she had assumingly fallen for another guy who is more ambitious
and tt she finds tt her character n tt guy's character juz dun match
but the thing is y did she drag until now den say?
she had not liked him for quite sm time liao
then she keep not wantin to c the guy when he kept lookin for her
disappointin him over n over again...

i kena wed geo remedial le ba
cannot go t.t on wed le

speakin of t.t...i tink i had made cy sad
i din really help her wid t.t stuffs...tt's y she got so sad ba
n bcuz of tt i became the vice-chair
o wel...juz hope tt i can help cy more so tt she wun be sad
and can relex more as wel

im such a shy gal...lol...but it's true
im juz afraid to irritate him
or is it bcuz i had tots of' breakage' tt i dun dare to look at him for more than 3s when he is lookin at me?
the saddest thing is tt im not the 'conversative' type of person
i usually had nth to talk `bout
frm last yr alrdy lidat le
rem when i was on my attempt to revive my frenship wid jason
i was suggested to go talk to him evry recess
when i told tt person tt i duno wat to talk bout
e suggest-or's respond was funny
suggested a list of things tt i can talk to him about...half of them were lame but funny

no matter wat, i wun dwell on my memories...no matter how much nicer it is.

wint3rdreamz@8:49 AM
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