::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Monday, February 28, 2005

hehez
lost again
my fault
duno how 2 smack
her fault
bein 2 nervous
but im proud 2 hav a partner lik u
n i hope u'l b proud of me 2

i'l nv 4get e way u reacted when u saw me tis mornin
r u really tt shy??
or r u sufferin frm a headache?
hope it's not becuz u saw me ba

eng--70%
phy--82%
haha
not a bad start
but my endin wld b much much worse
(ss n geo)

wint3rdreamz@8:14 PM
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Sunday, February 27, 2005

readin tm's blog again n again
tis is saddenin
she seems 2 dislik bjm frm head 2 toe
inside out

but i gues it was all an misunderstandin
u may hav heard alot bout him frm his Frens
not him himself
n i tink
ppl r not v gd 2 him nowadays
i duno

thinkin of e past
i realised how much harm ive done
if i nv exist
if i nv been 2 ai
wld e guys' frenship b beta?
even til now?
it's partially my fault
i feel sinful
>.<

doin a research on serial killers
gonna b my topic 4 e eng thingy
haha

worried bout my ct1
duno how red my report card's gonna b

muz at least win hih
or i wil die
jk
* * *

wint3rdreamz@1:21 PM
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Saturday, February 26, 2005

spend e mornin on trainin
evry1 was so tired
but i m stil not happy wid myself
im so lousy
sad
--
went 2 hav lunch wid jan n tm
den go np walk walk
on my own
cuz jan n tm went 2 watch constantine
until 3pm den went home
--
tot can use e com til nite
den my bro was at home
last nite slpt at 11pm
3pm stil slpin
lol
den he woke up
used e com
haiz
--
toked 2 my fren late nite frm 10+ til 1am
was tokin bout exams
bout events happenin last yr
jason...vj...bjm...
haiz
--
plannin 2 take public bus 2 turf city
even though i paid 4 e sch bus
"'
take it as a donation 2 e bus company
lol
--
dun worry bout me gal
he's not foolin wid me
he's not a flirt 4 sure
he juz got tao hua yun (a.l says)
thx 4 evrythin btw gal
***

wint3rdreamz@7:42 PM
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Friday, February 25, 2005

juz back frm np
bought a nice cd 4 sz
until now den buy abit 2 late le
hope she liks it anwz
-
add maths was ok
cept i skipped a damn easy qn
[3]!!
n din complete a qn tt i tok 15min 2 tink
[6]!!!!!
-
was crappin wid jason bout qh lookin 4 'ducks'
cuz tink he asked jason anythin there 2 wan at e chalet anotz
den jason was tokin bout wan nu ren
i extra changed 2 nan ren
qh lik stare stare at me
apologised
no respond
oops
-
no lessons 2day
so cool
spent most time crappin 'round
saw e2 discussin bout their class t
abit 2 early le ba
-
saw lr doin love calculation on tm n ...
noe she did it 4 fun
but cant deny i felt
*smthing*
-
e2 got their phy results 2day
sm1 got disappointed le :p
at least u pass
i mite even fail :(
-
heard got 1 class onyl 6 passed ss
really scared i got a 'f'
-
stil haven tel yr tt i cannot go interview on mon
cuz his msn nick
he sounds stressful
dun disturb him le ba
-
t.t trainin 2day
keep smackin n 'pullin'
nice try by tm n me ;)
***

wint3rdreamz@8:51 PM
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Thursday, February 24, 2005

if sm1 confessed 2 u
even if he/she noes u hav a bf/gf
wat would u do?
*
rmb wat lh said 2 me 2day
'it was so stress 2 b in e1
at least in e3(04)
even if u slack
u can oso score beta dan others de'
lol
*
wish 4 a bottle lik janice's(wong)
it wld surely lok nice in sapphire blue
wid white patterns
-.^
*
4got 2 bring tie on tues
borrow frm e councilor rm
til 2day stil haven return
any1 wana a try on e tie?:p
*
28th interview day
gonna excuse again
haiz
*
a.l callin me evryday
feels lik betrayin bjm
lame
stil loves him
but my cub's gone
haha
*
gona make notes on my subs evryday
den at exam period practice can le
dun feel lik writin
use type de den
***

wint3rdreamz@5:28 PM
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if i get any a1 it's miracle
*ss*
ans qn wrongly
*hmt*
comprehension lik sht
*phy*
dun even noe how 2 draw e magnified ray diagram
*eng*
summary duno wat crap i was writtin
*em*
got stupid mistakes
*chem*
din c e chromatogram properly
*geo*
ppl had not enough tink writin, i hav not enough time thinkin
*bio*
duno wat 2 say
*am*
no nid 2 say, worse dan e maths

wint3rdreamz@3:54 PM
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Friday, February 18, 2005

juz throw a temper 2day
1 small small 1
2 my mom
sry...
able 2 controlled myself not 2 tok rude stuffs 2 ppl
2 times
achievement sia...haha
been watchin myself alot
evr since yesterday
mak sure i nv do e wrong things
say e wrong words, especially
study ss
duno wat was bout it
wat if i fail?
>.<

wint3rdreamz@8:12 PM
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

PLZ GUYS, if u wanna say discouragin words or words 2 make me sadder
i would rather u SHUT UR MOUTH n leave it 4 another day
STOP puttin salt 2 my wound PLZ!!!
u al may b experienced in competition n evrythin
but I SIMPLY COULDNT TAKE IT!!!
i feel so..so...
i feel injust 4 myself
i suffered nerves so much i cant c wel
stupid things happen of cuz
u dun wan 2 help
u dun hav hopes on us
FINE!!
other ppl r at least trained by other ppl
tm n me lehz??
juz bein taught(n simply juz a few stuffs)
n we were off 2 train on our own
no1 2 'look after' us
any mistakes made we r rarely advised
we r e weaker 1s
but so wat???
we do count 2 ok??
keep concentratin on e best 4 wat??
y????
n tm told me tt 1 of u guys promised 2 teach her stuffs til she noe how 2 do it wel
but did he?
obviously no
feel 2 upset 2 continue
finish it off sm other day

wint3rdreamz@7:37 PM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

2moro--deathday
gonna hav t.t competition e nxt day
it'l b a lie if i say im not nervous at all
but tt's always a prob wid me
i wil not feel nervous bout smthing
only when it's a few moments b4 den i'l feel intense nervous-ity
sum more
interview on thurs
meant 2 b on wed de..
pushed on 2 thurs le
no matter wat i'l try my very very best de
i swear...
******
2day though im alone
i stil went 2 nbs
juz go lok lok
at e same time hav a lok at e gals frm other sch
"zhi ji zhi bi, bai zhan bai sheng" ma
4-1 4 e bois again
but at least they did play a gd game
cept 4 tt sec 4 guy ba
den e gals frm other sch
nan chiau ok ok
sjc beta
st nick v cool
sss simply rox
but tt of cuz doesnt delight me
though i tot they would b much harder 2 settle
haiz....tokin bout 2moro again
gonna start studyin le
ct1 starts nxt wk
jia you!!

wint3rdreamz@7:52 PM
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Monday, February 14, 2005

häppÝ väLêñ+ÌnË`s
very very happy 2day
c evrywhere evrywhere so clear
feels so gd...
feel lik slpin oso wun bear 2 close my eyes
2 reject frm e beautiful sight of tis world
although abit troublesome
nid 2 wash my lens evry 4h
but nvm
it's worth it man!!
got really blur bout physics 2day
miss 1 lesson=miss alot
lucky got my partner there
he quite gd in physics...
thx man
if i pass my physics muz thk u
2day trainin
lik ****
stil so lousy
lousier, i tink
2moro e gals say they wanna train
but guys got competition 2moro
nobody go support very ke lian de :p
c wat they wanna den decide ba....

wint3rdreamz@8:22 PM
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

was finishin my post last nite den suddenly my bro pressed e power switch
On Purpose
fine...i'l rewrite
******
back frm msia 4 a day le
busy wid unpackin
den went 2 tm's house 2 collect my hw
sounds guai ritez?
den stay there 4 hours
playin gb
chattin wid her
hahax
cuz my bro was at home in e afternoon ar
dun wanna c him
wait til he left e house 4 'nite meetin' den i went home
surprisingly received an ang bao frm her mother
shldve gone 2 al my fren's house 2 play den
hehehe
-.^

at nite more fun
used e com til 1+
until my bro came back
playin gb lik siao
den chattin wid al sorts of ppl
on msn or on gb as wel
1 of em is tis guy
17 yrs old
askin me 'how r u goin 2 spend ur mon?'
-----
den he told me 2 do tis n do tt
--dun tink wai wai
pretty gd ideas ok--
after tt he told me tt
'tel u oso no use
u not a guy wat'
haizzz.....
but a quite 'experienced' guy i supposed
experienced in tis kind of things
mon...big deal?
haha...shld b time 2 stop deceivin myself
******
4 e past 7 days ive been at malaka
sad...sad...sad
missed 3 days of sch
of which 2 lesson days
worried couldnt catch up
(im mad rite?)
anwz there was a limit of things i can do at malaka...
1. slp
2. help in e cookin(muz)
3. gamble
4. study hmt( bought only hmt bks)
5. watch tv
6. play pinball wid my bro's laptop(no internet access)
overall it's really quite boring
mayb cuz i couldnt live w/o internet ba
hahax
mayb it's cuz i couldnt stand e heat there
7 days there
non of it rains
sad...
but where there r bad pts there r always gd pts...
1. passport made
2. got my contact lens
3. received quite a no. of ang baos
4. bought a few new clothes
finally dun nid 2 strain my eyes lik mad in class le
waited 4 so long...
:D
although abit troublesome
******
tons of hw waitin 4 me le...bb!

wint3rdreamz@9:02 AM
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Saturday, February 05, 2005

i lik e way u call my name
i lik e way u look at me
i lik e way u made eye contacts even when u r tokin 2 sm1 else
i lik e way u play
i lik e way u smile
most importantly
i lik u
do u?

wint3rdreamz@7:11 PM
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Friday, February 04, 2005

OoOoOo ish sia la....
duno y bloggin again
2 sianz le ba...
2 free,nth 2 do
hw finished
dun feel lik eatin
dun feel lik playin
dun feel lik studyin
juz surf surf 'round
lookin at blogs
negative feelings
throw away!
tt's e effect of readin blogs of ppl lik kl
feels so free
though stil dun feel lik doin anythin
wana slp oso cannot
juz cant slp
>.<
means
numb in e heart ba...

wint3rdreamz@8:05 PM
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haiyo
haiyo
haiyo!!
wazzup wid me man...
accidentally offended mr yong 2day
duno wat i was doin
it meant 2 b a joke but cuz im not so shou wid him
so he kena offended
haiz...been gettin myself in2 all sorts of trouble nowadays
1st time,really 1st time
offended a tcher lik tis
he was lik got a bad impression of me le
duno y whenever i c him i wil oso bcum very de nervous
den tok crap
offendin him in e end
very sad
i really wana apologise
or i'l feel very guilty
but i really got no guts
really duno how,wat 2 do...

wint3rdreamz@6:30 PM
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Thursday, February 03, 2005

haiz...cum home so early 4 wat??
tot my mom really really nid me cuz she has lotz of stuffs 2 do
in e end...she's not at home
pity...get 2 watch only 3 matches
e 1st 2 were lost
mayb my presence cursed em ba...
was bout 2 leave den cant resist but 2 watch e nxt 1
wif e promise "if he lost 2 rounds i'l leave"
den gladly,he won
he really rox man...e way he plays
n e concentrated look on his face...
even zb says he'l fall in love wid him if zb's a gal
den received an sms sayin tt e other 2 lost too
which makes 4-1
but...so wat?
im not disappointed wid em
jason n vj played much much beta den durin trainins
they had won emselves,after al
e last 2 sets i hav no comments
cuz i nv c how they were
but even if i said anythin
it simply equals 2 ive said nth after al
i tink those guys r stil competin wid e nxt sch
sincerely hope tt their minds r not affected by e loss
e key 2 victory is 2 hav a clear mind...
n a peaceful soul...

now wat im feelin im oso not sure
i feel lik not goin 2 e nxt match of e guys
cuz i simply provides no help 2 em
im.....u noe,sm1 tt's meant 2 stay at e corner
wid nobody 2 talk 2,n only hav myself as company
but i tink no matter wat kind of person im
they would lik 2 more ppl 2 support den less rite?
i tink im bein lik a loner now
hope i wun turn in2 sm1 lik vj or i'l hate myself 4eva

wint3rdreamz@5:14 PM
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

omg...im havin 'attitudes'
got really fed up wid a tcher n feel lik slappin him at times
considered attitude?
watever....shld understand his reasons either

my fren says tt he's lik a flirt
me?'no comments'
i c no crime in guys noein gal frens
bein frenly is nth much either
if he's not....u noe.....
den i shldnt really mind
juz as i bein frens wid e guys
but i stil had gal frens as wel rite?
balanced ma....
but a line's drawn 4 sure
his world/my world
seems both completely different
im standin at 1 side while he's standin at e other side
haizzz...

nv expect nice things 2 happen
cuz it nv wil
but it'l only happen when
u dun expect it...

wint3rdreamz@9:20 PM
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