::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Sunday, January 30, 2005

...finally changed my bloggy skin
cuz sm1 say e previous 1 was a bit dull
-.-
stupid thing...tried 4 100 yrs le
stil cant figure out how 2 make e snow Show
darts.
juz finished writin a long long letter
dunno how m i goin 2 pass it 2 e receiver
haizzzz......
worse thing
tons of hw not completed!!
den i m really lousy at t.t
duno wat 2 do...
train lik siao shld b e ans
but not really got ppl guidin me lidat
hav 2 guess mistakes n try try try
i tink...

wint3rdreamz@10:47 AM
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Thursday, January 27, 2005

hate my myself
hate my mom
hate my dad e most
i hate my sex
y r women so soft-hearted?
only creatin more trouble 4 herself
bein controlled by men
y r women so stupid?
i really dun understand
does women hav 2 giv her own hard-worked $ 2 her husband
juz bcuz her husband hav no $?
NO
mei you zhe ge bi yao
let e man die on his own
he brought trouble 2 himself
den wan 2 brin sufferings 2 e women
tt's y wan ppl ask me wat my dream husband wil b
i wil not say much
cuz i noe...e more i hope
e more disappointed i m
so y 'dream'?

*litez of hope r juz virtual, after all...*

wint3rdreamz@8:24 PM
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Sunday, January 23, 2005

yesterday--happy happy happy
mornin went 2 buy a t.t bat
cuz e old 1 2 smooth le...
no friction
cheapest made there was $50+
rdy-made 1s were there 2--$20+
but duno y i was so tempted 2 buy e 50+ 1
den e price was cut down til $45
thx jan n cy 4 accompanyin me there
thx lotz!!
later met up wid zb n shaam 4 pw
cy was wid us 2...so nice of her 2 help
den we film alot of funny funny stuffs
damn damn damn damn funny tings
tok quite a few photos 2...
e best thing is...we had ice cream!!
omg...tt was sooooo tasty
me alrdy lik ice cream le den e ice sold on 1 of e streets in chinatown
was softer den e 1s tt u usually c on e streets tt sel those in blocks
so...4 those who haven go chinatown yet
it's juz near e wet market there
shop name--cool treats
which ends e day
wat we were doin i decided 2 keep it confidental
(hehehz i so secretive sia)
wa....i really cant wait 2 try out my new bat
but if i stil bad...den i duno wat 2 do

love isnt bout bein 2gether
or how wel u noe tt person
it's bout whether he/she is e 1 u r missin
n care bout
when u nid a hug
is he/she e 1 u'l lok 4
tt may nt b rite but certainly beta dan e previous tot

wint3rdreamz@1:49 PM
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Friday, January 21, 2005

2day so sad
helpin me mom in e end yue bang yue mang
got scolded by her n she keep sayin
"u use 2 much com le tt's y u cant concentrate"
"
juz an excuse nt 2 let em use e com ba
haiz

feels so great had resolved sm of e misunderstandings within me..
though stil not very satisfied...(?)
stil got sm q i wanna ask but scared he sad
tm told me b4 he always turned away e subject
whenever she wanna tok 2 him bout mr yong
n tt's precisely wat i wanna ask bout
cuz evrythin changes ever since a tok he had wid mr yong i believe
e biggest misunderstandin tt is yet resolved in my heart i tink

2moro goin chinatown wid jan zb n shaam
gonna do smthing diff frm other ppl 4 pw i tink
nt those heritage thingy but stil bout chinatown
aim--2 finish e project by end of feb
den we can slack slack slack!!

wint3rdreamz@7:36 PM
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Thursday, January 20, 2005

你是我曾经的甜蜜
我是你爱情的过去
那一段美好的记忆
我们都不能够忘记
因为我很爱很爱你
所以能微笑着离去
虽然我不会在见你
幸福是我们曾经在一起

王羚柔 - 当我们同在一起

wint3rdreamz@5:03 PM
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

aiyo...so many days nv blog le
i noe got sm1 evryday cum c my blog muz b very sian le
1st ting,happy bdae cy!!
made e card early in e mornin
so last sec sia...but i really cant find alot of time these few days
sm1's bdae cumin oso...
gonna mak another card
4 e act cute de..haiz... :p
2 days ago i wu2 yuan2 wu2 gu4 became a 'councilor'
nv expect e sch uses e class chairman/keyholder=councilor 'policy' again
tink it's nt actually a gd idea
cuz there r ppl lik jannice n tm who deserves 2 b 1
couldnt b 1
haiz--*a world ful of unfairness*

wint3rdreamz@5:34 PM
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Sunday, January 16, 2005

back 2 my normal life,i guess
im goin 2 enjoy as much as possible
hw n frens n sch
watever it is,im stil waitin
whether 2 continue,or 2 end
im stil waitin 4 e ans
no matter wat...

wint3rdreamz@10:34 AM
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Friday, January 14, 2005

cannot b alone anymore
or i'l get crazy ideas
2day after sch dam lonely
ppl goin 4 cca n evrythin
den i was repeatedly attacked
by e drownin experience last yr
e memory of water coverin al of me
suffocation n evrythin
e tots of nearin death
wanna stop thinkin bout tis
but there was nth 2 occupy my mind
i couldnt tak it anymore
i nearly broke down

2day de lessons r ok
juz duno y feel lik slpin durin e maths
nt tt e lesson is nt interestin
but....duno y la
so many bks nid 2 buy
10 yr series,bla bla bla
i alrdy owe ppl so much $ le--up 2 $100
how long m i goin 2 clear al my debts?

wint3rdreamz@8:01 PM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

a smile is e best thing 1 can giv
n i juz received it
last evenin
lost 2 sm1 i always won in e 2.4 yesterday
but 2 me it's nth
cuz ive passed my standards above 'c'
but he din...haha
so im goin 2 run 1 more time nxt wk
den can get away frm runnin 4 a long long time
b4 cross country i tink
*hate runnin soo... much!!*

2day's funni
me eng tcher is soo 'cute'
tellin us bout choosin bois n used 1 boi in e class as an example
hahaha
guess he muz b...wa
face red until siao--duno whether true anotz,nv c clearly
den tokin bout her bf
my head shake nonstop--*sighin*
nt a bad tcher after all
tt's when she dun scold la...hehez

wint3rdreamz@7:36 PM
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Monday, January 10, 2005

haiz
duno wat's up wid me nowadays
it even takes me 2 switch on n off me com 3 times 4 me 2 finally decide 2 blog
my life's juz lik tis
hu si luan xiang-ing
bout breakups, rapes, etc
my fren suggested me 2 draw a clear line wid e guy who apparently likes me
but
does tt mean tt a person who crushes on u cant b ur fren?
dun tink so
on e other hand she makes a pt
i finally noe y im angry
e advise he gives me
it's as though he's my fren only
askin me 2 ask meself tis kind of q
crap crap crap

til 2day den i realise tt sm things u muz really say
felt so guilty tt i din tel my fren tt i lost my $50 on 2nd floor
or she mite nt lost Her $50
cuz she left it there 2

wint3rdreamz@6:42 PM
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Saturday, January 08, 2005

i alwayz knew e world hav no fairness
but i din realise
im 1 of e ppl who made it unfair
a person who treats sm1 gd dun get smthing gd in return
im nt tokin bout meself
sm1 who i tink liks me treats me gd
beta dan sm1 i love
but in e end....
he dun get his reward
cuz i lik him
as a fren
n tt's al...

wint3rdreamz@3:57 PM
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Friday, January 07, 2005

lalalalalala
camp mentor=potential councilor??
hmm...watever it is
1 wk past
nt much these 2 days
but at least he's bein 'tokin' 2 me again
sec 1s tis yr muz b a pain
even sz n tm r havin dam dam dark faces
when i c em at cca open house 2day
jan's nt lookin gd either
nice 2 hear quite a num of ppl r interested in arc
hahax

bio dam complicated
names hard 2 rmb
parts hard 2 locate
so scared i ve 2 drop tis
but...i'l work hard!!
nv b ever sry 2 meself again

r men really jerks when u wan 2 depend on em 4 a lifetime?
tt's wat i feel nw
n no1's gonna prove me wrong nw
cuz i stil very young
but under e influence of my family n my aunts'
dun blame me 4 tinkin tis way
me mom n aunts r totally betrayed by their husbands
eg
me aunt safe was emptied by her husband w/o permission
he sold al e jewellaries 2 gamble
wat's tis??
best 2 depend on 1self in e end...

wint3rdreamz@10:45 PM
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

im an idiot
im a jerk
im 2 b hated
y did i do tis in pw yesterday
shldnt hav offended lr 2 get tings in my own way
im so selfish
i regret evrythin ive done yesterday
evrythin ive done 2 her
i'l nv get emotion peace ever again
nw tt i realise tt im an evil person
im so guilty of my action
regretful of my words
i wished i was nv borned tt mo
so i'l nv say such stupid, hurtin words
im really really sry,lr..

wint3rdreamz@6:00 AM
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