::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

bus-ing off to kl soonnn
haha somehow it's yet another time of the year to get away from things
ok not tt running away from things is good...but once in a while..
not bad la ;p

today[26/5] quite suay
brought almost $300 worth of coins to help mom to deposit
then the bank says tt they dun do coins deposit on mondays -.-
brought the coins back home.
went to posb to get my giro form stamped and done
it was quite fast actually
just tt e woman said tt my signature's diff from tt time i opened my acc
so i'll have to erm...forge my own signature
lol.
went to sch to hand in giro form
thk goodness the guard din stop me from coming in.
went to paragon..
e crumpler i want is out of stock :(
met junyang n zhirong at wheelock
checked out the crumpler store there n yea out fo stock oso :((
had 'high tea' at coffee beans.
rushed to safra
n yea was late n kinda got chilled
lol

thx ar jy, for trying to 'save' me
haha lol..

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forgot to mention tt there was elections last friday

andymarkjeremylimshujenfelidanielgeralddesireexiurong
marcusyikaiverenemingjiejeremykorfionajoleneyanhuileonard

all the best for 08/09 :D

joe kinda killed one of her capt wanna-bes
by posing a prob tt is not caused by the candidate herself
(dad dun go around asking ok, or even ask me)

realised tt confidence in speech wins over almost everything
even the most not desired situation of running for exco of 2 ccas can be neglected
for he sounded utterly confident tt he can balance n cope
during his speech

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have fun in sg everyone

hope e seats on the bus is comfortable to slp on

jodie:
"i hope everyone on the bus is asleep"
"so that all the food they brought on board will be mine"
(evil laughter)
lol.

john:
"ur hair still smells of powder"
:((

wint3rdreamz@3:17 AM
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Sunday, May 25, 2008

yesterday was out the whole day

scored for ntt monthly in the morning
$40! haha
final 10 was interesting
cuz the electronic target's down, so they have to shoot on target cards and den use the machine to decide the score (with decimal place haha)
so sebestian n i were to collect the cards from the shooters to uncle tan
starting was quite fun...but at the end it got kinda tiring
haha

was bout to go home when i saw cheston n john
so hang around and then went to city hall tgt
went to new york new york for dinner, met aiting at mrt station
waited for quite a long time for wilson n rachel
(ok myabe not really long but cuz we were really hungry, esp me who had only ate 2 sandwiches for the day)
ok..had food..first time there and i think e food's not bad though not excellent
dun like the shao1 wei4 of the spare ribs tt i had
wilson's treat! hahaha thx so much man..total bill is like over 100 lol

den walked for some time to find an ice cream place
dun like the way they always talked to themselves
lol
got into anderson's at ehh....marine square?
ate ice cream, fruits n fudge
den opened some presents
got this big mickey mouse mug from aiting which she filled it up with folded stars and a msg
she's just so sweet
hmm den there's this box from wilson n rachel
inside there's alot of shredded paper
3 pairs of socks (of diff colors! :)
1 120gb hdd (!)
and a g-string -.-
yea..den forced me to take photos with all the gifts
in public somemore Xl

ok yea...so walked again
to some area nearby fullerton, opp esplanade
duno it's my imagination or wat
i think i heard min calling me
lol

took photos and stuff
then all of a sudden evryone took out this spray streamers thingy and started spraying me
they spray and spray and spray and spray
and spray and spray
lol.
den think is john passed me a bottle of baby powder
and i had my revenge....on wilson first
hahaha
den we just powdered and sprayed each other
ran around and stuff

den took photos again
we look like ghosts
haha

wilson gave rachel, aiting n i a lift home
think i kinda powdered his car alot
cuz i was heavily powdered thx to them wat
haha

haha...really thx to them for giving me this memorable celebration :))

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was v tired today
maybe cuz i ran too much yesterday
slpt alot
went to safra to give prep talk to the girls
took taxi down to tuition

today's lesson is abit out-of-norm
mrhwang was going through some compre
den after tt let us watch a video tt i think bg would so wanna to watch it and will agree to the content
the irony is tt we were watching it in a kindergarden centre
lol

hope tt im able to go to sch tmr
settle the $300, team training and buy crumpler
dun feel like washing my powder-covered bag
haha

sam's really great
appreciated her initiative and efforts to take up the responsibility to help xinhang n charmian although we din tell her to do so
:)

wint3rdreamz@8:06 PM
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Friday, May 23, 2008

"i think i'll get a headache in the morning...
and get much better after lunch.
ehh...it's just some morning sickness..."
that's wat u'll hear from johnathOn
and from me too:)
[but not the morning sickness part.haha.]

oya.
the other day when i was mugging for bio
i was like telling him tt my mom has wrote a letter for me to take a break at home on friday morning, going to sch for elections in the afternoon.
so we were like trying to be sarcastic, bout how 'ill' i'll be
and i was saying "yea..duno y...morning dun feel kinda well...got morning sickness i think"...before realising wat ive said
lol

hmm...felt kinda conned last time
i spent the same amt of money ($26) and bought a 1gb memory card
when i used that amt to buy a 512 one long ago
haha..it's like hyper deflation..lol
the guy at e shop was nice..
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me: how much is a memory card for 6280?
guy: 28.
me: can go any cheap?
guy: ok la. 26?
[me dug out my money n realised i only had 26 (just nice)]
...after walking away for a while, i realised tt e memory card is not e one compatible to my hp. so walked back....
me: eh. this is not the rite one. it should be this [shows the nokia memory card]
guy: o? o...wait arh......
[he fished out a micro-sd card and an adaptor for mini-sd--the correct one]
guy: take this...it's the same thing..in the future when u changed to phones tt uses micro-sd, u can just use this as well.
me: ehh...ok thx....how much is it?
guy: more ex la...but it's ok....i'll give u the same price... just do come to buy stuffs from me next time.
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haha! sweet.

i wanna have him as my little brother:)
though he's vulgar(argh), he's stupid, he's childish, he's pan4 ni4 and he's naughty.
but the fact tt he listens at times (duno is really listening anot..haha)
and his kiddy-ness
and can take my suan-ing
makes him a good little brother still.
and not because of wat jljj says: he nids an older brother to take care of him.
i alrdy had wanted a lil bro long ago
and he used to top my list alrdy.
haha..

one more thing,
i think gjs mite win more votes then jljj
from wat ive heard from others
lol.

and im vexed, bout who to tick on my orange slip of paper

wint3rdreamz@2:14 AM
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

"我是小雨
我爱你
你爱我吗？"

duno if junyang n joannah still rmb this anot. i used to wonder where this xiaoyu thing came from.

call me slow or anything
i just watched Secrets online

very interesting show.
just that i dun really noe wat the ending is :/

was doing this template from 3am till 6am today
think my bro woke up and saw me
haha

slpt till 1pm :)
gonna go for kl training briefing later...
my mom's like waiting for e allowance
hahaha

gonna mug for spa tonight
it's like the last spa ever!
yea~~
;D

wint3rdreamz@3:49 PM
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ok, i realised that my posts nowadays are too emo
even for my liking
lol.
for one thing, im actually not feeling That bad
just at the point of time, wanna express things differently
den, extreme emo-ness.
lol

ok, i admit i've been crying for the past few days
it was really depressing
to see that paper after paper
one of the only things you can do is to stone
and stone
at the questions
when these papers are supposed to be challenging, time-wise
but i managed to finished these papers, for those that i know how to answer, i mean.
it was really depressing
to see piles of revision undone
and all you can tell yourself, due to shortage of time, is: im gonna give up on this topic, that topic.
and it was additionally depressing
to be sitting down at ur table, mugging
when ur mom calls for u every other moment to do little things like
sweep the floor, make coffee, get things for her and stuff.
and finally, it is depressing
when ur mom has decided to take up a huge order when u r studying for exams
and requested u to spare hours of time everyday to help to cope with something that she herself is impossible to cope with.

haha no no im not emo, since this is alrdy over, why emo?

i know, this was done, all for money.
i know, she's getting old, and tt it's hard to be like how she used to be.
and i know, i should've started revising earlier
den i dun nid to struggle so much
so all in all, it's my fault. haha.

but seriously, it's dumb to do so
when u have a husband who will take any opportunity to blame u for his child's poor performance due to overworking
i guess, this time, will be the first
and hopefully the last time
that im going to lie about my results through my teeth
to save her from getting blamed for my stupidity
and to save her from additional worries, which she have alrdy gained from work and of cuz, her husband.

all in all
CTs ended today [technically yesterday]
but end-of-exams has never been too joyous for me.
cuz it'll only mean it's time to face the work tt was denied for almost 2 weeks
haha
but stress level dropped, for sure
and tt's good enough.

went to sch in e morning to mug in the range
with johnathan...haha
were mugging peacefully till like 12pm arrived
and we grew kinda scared
not because time's running out
but out of e fear of facing physics students who had then finished their papers
lol
but it's ok they were not too overboard
hahaha

bio's another paper yet to be completed again
though mcq is easier than ive expected
[not tt i find it easy still, though]

trained abit with gen's gun today
[sorry but i kop-ed it w/o waiting for ur reply Xl]
played abit basketball with andy and his fren
slacked in e range with andy while he's waiting..
den ya, went home.

sat, sun and mon were spent mugging
but bio was nt completed still.
it's great to have dexter as my studying companion
not tt he's studying with me
but the exchanging of sms-es kinda kept me awake the whole day
haha.

hey joe,
actually today[20may] when i heard u make tt call
i alrdy know who was on the other line
it's not just a guess
but the familiarity in tt different tone that u used to use
when u r talking to tt person.
be careful, and tt's all i can say.

gonna change skin,
into something brighter i think
haha

wint3rdreamz@2:57 AM
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Sunday, May 18, 2008

something's telling me
i should just stop...to chase after
the impossible.
the attempt makes things look so artificial

wint3rdreamz@1:59 AM
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Friday, May 16, 2008

"a seizure in my heart
and there i am, tearing.
i asked myself why,
and no answer came.
i know internally, i am suffering
but is it that bad, that i'll have to do this?
my mind tells me:
'it's still a great life anyway
so why are you struggling?'
my failure now, in addition to my previous success, explains it all.
my nmsol is falling
and it's all my fault."

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3 days of exams past fast and badly
with every possibility that i might not be able to pass a single subject,
i know im gonna be so dead when results come out
[but luckily, it's coming out after the holidays]

am going to training camp in kl from 27th may to 5th june

and am gonna miss aristal cuz of that.

thinking back, im kinda sorry and guilty for being evil to * during njcis
not that * is being irritating or anything
but just that, if you want to help, do it willingly
and when you willingly help, don't whine about it
then that will defeat the purpose of you being 'willing' in the first place.
i know that * is seriously sincere to help the club
and make sure that nothing goes wrong with *'s experience.
but, when * whine, it makes a bad impression, you noe?

i've messed up my language, but just dun like to keep using the word 'you'

and yes yes yes
i am looking forward to next saturday
XDDDDD

wint3rdreamz@4:07 PM
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

COMMON TEST.
RAWR~

though he's ancient,
but his song is still quite nice ^^

wint3rdreamz@1:22 PM
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Tuesday, May 06, 2008

when i lose sth, i gain sth else is really true i guess
just when i lost my phone, my the other black sock which had disappeared mysteriously for weeks suddenly appeared in the kitchen

okayy. not a very good illustration
but at least this can somehow, make me feel happier

and and, m1 suddenly said i can upgrade my phone for free (even before 20 mths!)
yay :D

wint3rdreamz@11:10 PM
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guess what...?
i lost my phone today

phone gone, alarm clock gone, organiser gone, mp3 gone
hahaha
too dependent on my phone liao i guess
lol
so yea, dun bother calling or sms
i wun reply even if i wanted to anw
haha

wint3rdreamz@9:14 PM
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Sunday, May 04, 2008

went down to safra today
just to change the results for rifle men cuz i din realise i printed some scores wrongly
if i met william again and he were to ask me what are the possible screw-ups during IS
i'll say: too many to mention
Xl

yesterday morning was a SERIES of screw-ups
firstly was that we din gauge for one shot
den the positioning changed
den i rearranged the boys' scores, forgetting to include the target number
so all the names dun tally with the target card number as a result
confusing mark and i

when everyone thinks that eddielim's nagging
i think ive learnt something from him
and hopefully...i wun be out of job
lol

charmian has the same chinese name as me (as in even the same chinese characters)!
just tt it's reversed..haha
so ailin suggested i should have mianchar as my english name
lol.

i like his smile.
i like the feel when our shoulders touched.
i like it when he asked me if my bleeding leg is alright.
yet i think, the excited feeling is lacking
perhaps im not in love with him, after all?
or maybe i think that we are not close enough for me to even consider liking him?
cuz i know..he only see me an ordinary friend, not even a good friend to begin with.
haha

wint3rdreamz@6:56 PM
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sometimes there are too many things for one to do, so many one has gained
that makes one tend to neglect about other things, lose other things

i have lost it, the ability to care about people
i have neglected, wat is so simple yet so important: people's feelings

they are waiting for me,
to ask, to be around
yet im, as always, too "busy" to be there

that's an excuse i guess
and im really sorry about that.

it's time to let go of things that's gonna affect my relationship
with the people i love.
and of course, to change my bloody attitude

wint3rdreamz@1:57 PM
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Saturday, May 03, 2008

im like a bg, catching and noting 'controlling phrases'
lol.

and the controlling phrase of ur words today is "for a while"
hahaha...hope u mean it, and assuming u really noe, XD!

woots~~
cco again tmr (saturday) !
to sch and maybe buying crumpler
college day prize taking

and i duno what, or who, is making my heart skip a beat, when thinking bout tmr

chillzz G!
maybe it's time to tell her how we really feel
in a nice way, if possible.
x.x

wint3rdreamz@1:04 AM
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Thursday, May 01, 2008

"hey, u going for munich?"

"haha no la...my pb din even hit the qualifying score"

"u shouldn't think this way. if u think that that's your pb, then u'll always shoot lower than that....

u have no pb."

-Jasmine Ser

wint3rdreamz@11:20 AM
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