::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

today's marking day
tmr's as well
meant to go out de
in either the three out options i had mentioned yesterday
e fourth one..stayin at home
sort of wat im doing now
e 4th option
but in a dif manner
i am not playin
well...true i was playin the whole morning
but the moment mom woke up
i was doing work for her until now
rest abit only la
later still nid to carry on
meant to do wat was supposed to be done in three days in one day
it will take the whole day and even nite
but i have a purpose in this

i wan to go out of cuz
the movie i had always wanted to watch
i missed it
so i mus find something benefit to an wei myself
its my mom's prob
i did told her i would be going out today since monday
then normally e day when i go out
she would usually ask me wat time to leave and she'll arrange things for me to finish b4 i leave
this time...duno when she got my weakness
firstly...she ate her breakfast in silence
and din mention anything about me going out today
then...she assigned me jobs today as though i did not mention tt im going out today
she said: complete e dress u had not finished yesterday...and work on e new shirt
actually...i can finish these within an h or 2
so i told her i going out after that
after i had summonded alot of courage
y? cuz she had constantly reminded me to inform her the day b4 if i wanna go out
then if i just tell her: ma...i going out after these
it's as if like...i arranged these last sec
then she'll scold me
anyway...i still told her
she said: u still got o's leh...just one more week then u can go out all u wan
wth...tot i just finished my eoy?
cant let me go out just today and i'll concentrate later on
she told me yesterday i spent e whole afternoon playin
enough liao
eh..ok ba...miss it then miss it

i din inform the others bout me not going
i tot if i pon this movie they would not even notice or care
anyway the idiotic guy msged me
asking me not watchin le ar

so back to wat i said on top
to find something good out of this to an wei myself
and i had found it
well....i only had 1 and an almost finished job for the day
1 tmr and another 1 e day after
mite as well i finished all today
then i can study my o' all i like tmr and on fri
good thing rite?
it certainly diao-ing...to think that studyin is something good
but... really, the exam pressure is still with ever since one week before the eoy

actually...ive always started to worry at the day before e main papers de
but this time...because i was asked to start a study timetable the week before
so the pressure arrived early
due to the fact that i had insisted myself to follow the timetable

now its end of tht le
i had alrdy set my goal to finish memorising all e words in the 8 books 2 days before the actual chinese o, so that i have time to study other components
i feel the time is really kinda runnin out
i must do something
i must work
i must play...haha
but most importantly
i must find ample time to study out of work and play
hehe

wint3rdreamz@2:46 PM
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