::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Monday, July 02, 2007

im sad.

today's training din go well
or should i say.. quite badly
ive tried to allow my gun to jerk forwards as it has this natural jerk tt dun come from my arms
well it worked, for some shots i did get 10s
but i flunked badly cuz i got more 8s n 7s
n with prem behind me.. i muz admit i felt a large amt of stress
n it stopped me from been daring in my actions
im afraid i did my actions wrongly.. though to me it's stil ok though it's not so rite
but i scared when i did tt he's goin to walk to me n comment on my actions
well i admit tt ther's sth wrong with my fundamentals
but mostly abit mistakes wun affect me tt much..
n usually when it gets bad i'll just put down my gun
but haha thx prem for makin e trip down to safra n e suggestions u gave me :))

ehhh i shouldntve had said anything bout mom in front of prem
duno wat made me do so
(perhaps my heart was feeling dam wrapped up n everything tt i felt like exploding)
but after wat ive said.. i realised tt it made me worse instead of better

im basically not willing to let ppl noe bout my family
it'll only made me feel sadder
tt's y i appreciate my frens alot
cuz they mean alot alot to me
actually my family too
but in a different sense i guess
when im able to make my frens happy.. to c em smile
tt's wat makes me feel relieved.. makes me feel tt im somehow acknowledged

nono.. im not being emo.. n im not an emo person
im a happy person after all!
one slp n all troubles will be gone! :DD

n oso... thx meiting for tt wonderful experience talk
it inspired me.. somehow.. how it'll be i guess i'll only noe on thurs
everyone jiayou.. n i'll too! (",)

wint3rdreamz@1:13 AM
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