::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Thursday, July 05, 2007

worst day in like !@#$% years
my personal worst of e yr: 345: 84 85 85 91

basically today things seemed abit too late
haha
firstly.. it's too late for me to finish preparing some stuffs for my ai pistol girls
im really really v sorry :(
secondly.. it was too late for me to get my breakfast today
but tt's really alrite :) cuz it's partially my indecisive attitude tt caused this
thirdly (n e worse).. it was too late for me to recover from my total negative confidence during nats today
i feel.. dam regretful :((
forthly.. i received most of e nice nice items After my shoot
which one of em is a nicely made fridge magnet

actually in e end.. my confidence is still v low
just tt im left with only 5min tt leaves me no choice but to fire off quickly
if not.. i'll just be still holding still holding n still holding
not confident of my relationship to even shoot a 9
sigh.
so when i start hittin 9s n 10s at e beginning of e rushed last series
tt is only when i can hear myself sayin: c? u just make sure tt ur relationship's rite for a mo n trigger
10s n 9s will come de
actually i started shooting fast at 3rd series le
just tt i was having a heck-care attitude instead
n fire off even when i m positive tt my front sights r low
last series was chiong-ed but with a more serious attitude den e 3rd

overall ive fallen.. dam hard.. but ive learnt alot too
good experience still..
but y muz it be during nationals?
so... was somehow lucky to scrape a team 3rd though i crashed like 15+ pts

went for ice skating after n had abit of fun

almost wanted to stop my heart from aching by slping e mo i reached home
but mom asked me to do this n do tt
so too bad.. couldnt run away from my emotions
kinda.

anws
thx to prem for helpin me watever he can do n watchin me throughout e whole shoot
thx to e pistol gals who consoled me n tell me tt it's ok n im still loved no matter wat :D
thx csb for e listening ear (too bad u have to listen to me cuz u r e first one to msg me to ask me for e results)
thx mr lee for e pats on my head, tt weird smile u always give me n e dam lame/funny jokes on e car
thx joannah for being worried bout me
thx cx for trying to remind me of wat i should be doing/thinking when im shooting today (though kinda sorry cuz i din really done it well)
n thx to everyone who have wished me n my team luck

a div njapg
we'll be back next yr
to pawn every other schs
n most imptly pawn ourselves :))

wint3rdreamz@11:58 PM
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