::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

yawnz
im always tired n i wonder y

lemme start from last sat
had monthly shoot in the morning
monthly shoot was shit
it's my fault anw...i have lost motivation (still..somehow nats affected me too much)
haha watever.

went to have lunch with e nyt rifle gals n jose n abigail n met up with e ppl to east coast for bbq
on e way sth kinda bad happened
it took a long time to wait for 401
half of us were queuing up while the other half went to sit on e railings on e other side
den e bus finally came
n ehh...e other half wanna try to cut the queue by joinin e rest
got told off by a lady in e queue
''dun cut in the queue...blablabla...u all nv study izit..''

e sec1 gals r pissed off e comment
told henry n he suggested telling off e lady back on e bus
they had a quarrel...oj joined in..lixin tried to stop it by apologisin
n me...well i just kept quiet
im really ashamed of myself
being the most senior in e group
all i did was to tell e gals to stop (which they dun bother to listen)
they insisted tt e lady is in e wrong cuz she gave tt bad comment bout 'nv study'
if only..i went up to e lady n tell her tt it's our wrong tt we cut e queue
but even if so she shouldve give such comments
n tt if she would have just say 'dun cut queue' in a nicer way she couldve gained e respect of us n listened to her
there's some tinge of racism in this arguement too
cuz during e argument...oj was like askin e girls wat happened n they explain in chinese
so e lady tot they were scolding her in chinese (which she dun understand)
n started jabbing in malay with her frens/relatives/watever
e girls just continued in chinese 'jiang hua yu la...jiang hua yu la...'
everyone seems like so pissed
so it wasnt a really good sight
after we alighted
some of us even went to pt middle finger at her when e bus drove past us

*e details mite not be accurate as im havin abit of stm*

well some pts here:
it's partially my fault..nv attempt to seriously resolve this
sec1 girls: it's our fault tt we cut e queue..so wat if we came earlier but if we dun queue, means we lose e queue, even if our frens r still queuing. how would u think if someone else cuts our queue?
tt lady: u shouldnt have made tt sarcastic remark. tt's not e way to gain respect from other ppl. if u wan ur pt to get across, do it in a nicer way. so pls mark ur words.
oj n henry: can c tt u r pissed too. but as a senior n exco member of e club, pls do not lose ur head lidat. remember tt we r in e public n we represent e club. anw tt is not e main pt. e main thing is tt be a good example in front of e juniors. choose to solve e prob in a more peaceful way n not to create conflict. u guys din notice but e incident occured partially cuz of ur encouragement.
lixin n perhaps guansheng: thx for trying to be e peacemaker. but tt's not e way to solve probs, sadly. it'll only make e situation worse by making e other party think tt we wanted to run away from e fault. on the other hand u'll lose e respect from ur juniors by doing this.

anw e bbq was fun
enjoyed it greatly n realised how much i miss u guys :)

back to boring sch on mon n tues

tues training was nice
finally picked up my motivation by keep tellin myself tt i psycoing myself tt i can go ntt
it's a fresh start, im gonna make it better :D

wed is cip day
got this bunch of teenage girls with us e whole morning
startin it was rather awakened
but we turned out quite ok in the end i guess
had some fun playin bball with em

capt/vcapt meeting with yb den club run (smile for a mile) den pt den exco meeting with yy

i cant help it but to say i kinda agreed with csb bout her.
it's really too tiring, to think too much. so, y do?
but i cant totally accept my pt of view, cuz she has been in e club longer than me
she mite has seem things tt i dun get to c
but still...thinkin too much is really tiring..haha..
bearing grudges with others is oso v tiring too...

had fun doin pt (while watchin hanson doing it)
n played bball too!

well...dun say tt u dun nid e help of e senior exco
u may dun like e way e senior ran e club
but they have done it after all..good job or bad

anw slacked in the range with ailin n chokkee after e exco meeting
sang n sang
haha...funn

ppl, esp some guy...pls dun react to this post by approachin anyone n tellin em bout wat u noe from this entry. thk u v much.

wint3rdreamz@11:52 PM
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