::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Monday, October 22, 2007

no 4h2 for me :(

no, i have not given up hope yet,
im still trying very hard to get to know why i got only 4.5 for my VA
when everyone else gets more than 6.
i want to know, not entirely because i wanna push my econs from a 38 overall to 40+
but i dun wanna it to be that because of some error in calculation or something
that results my VA to be only 4.5, which leads to me having only 38 overall.
so no, i wun wanna insist to mrs.lew that i desperately need that 2 marks,
i dun need her sympathy if i really deserve an U grade for my econs.

but nevertheless, i have to be prepared by the fact that i might have to drop my econs from h2 to h1
which i really, really dun wan it to happen.

this will result in:
change of class (no joannah and yc and some other really nice ppl)
no h3 (regardless if i get to remain 4h2 or not, i'll still not get it)
no EAGLES (my $150 gone!)
no being an OGL (that's very hard to say..)
less(or even no) chance to get into NUS medicine

but, looking on the brighter side
i've passed the other 5 subjects
which is like a super great improvement as compared to common test
n i am officially promoted! :D
this is really, really good enough.

thx alot to those who helped in a way or another.
to JOANNAH: u r the sweetest. thx for ur pat, ur smile, ur msg n the passing me of the tissue.
to YC: thx for the tissue n the pen and the calculator (lol that's random). but most importantly, thx for ur ignorance cuz u somehow noe that is wat i needed the most, more than consoles, concerns and words of encouragement. (or maybe u just dunno what to say so you din;t say anything, haha)
to BG: thx for staying behind while i looked for mrs.lew and tried to stay behind while i looked for mrs.khoo cuz of her miscalculation. and yea for your "now you know why njc only has president scholars up to only 97" (watver. :P)
to someone (forgot who but i think is JY): for your 'wtf'. not sure why it relieved me a bit, but perhaps cuz u were like scolding something out loud that i wanna scold. (thank goodness you din say the word f***, otherwise i mite get more agitated by the sound of the word and punch u or sth Xp)
thx to the others in the range who are happy, u made me feel much better.
though i did rant abit and throw a little temper on ZR (sorry ZR! n.n)

yes, people say that to make yourself not to regret, you will say that you have tried your best.
but no, i would rather think that i have not tried my best and regret.
cuz it means that well, there's still room for improvement, and is a lot more than to those who have really tried their best.
yes, i mugged like i have never mugged.
but no, i did not really last to the end. i was less hardworking as exams approached very very close, and worst still, i din't try to answer like i'll die not answering properly; i give up answering rather easily.
sad, but i'll jiayou jiayou de!
Alevels i'll pwwwwwnnn u!
;)

wint3rdreamz@8:11 PM
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