::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

ok, i realised that my posts nowadays are too emo
even for my liking
lol.
for one thing, im actually not feeling That bad
just at the point of time, wanna express things differently
den, extreme emo-ness.
lol

ok, i admit i've been crying for the past few days
it was really depressing
to see that paper after paper
one of the only things you can do is to stone
and stone
at the questions
when these papers are supposed to be challenging, time-wise
but i managed to finished these papers, for those that i know how to answer, i mean.
it was really depressing
to see piles of revision undone
and all you can tell yourself, due to shortage of time, is: im gonna give up on this topic, that topic.
and it was additionally depressing
to be sitting down at ur table, mugging
when ur mom calls for u every other moment to do little things like
sweep the floor, make coffee, get things for her and stuff.
and finally, it is depressing
when ur mom has decided to take up a huge order when u r studying for exams
and requested u to spare hours of time everyday to help to cope with something that she herself is impossible to cope with.

haha no no im not emo, since this is alrdy over, why emo?

i know, this was done, all for money.
i know, she's getting old, and tt it's hard to be like how she used to be.
and i know, i should've started revising earlier
den i dun nid to struggle so much
so all in all, it's my fault. haha.

but seriously, it's dumb to do so
when u have a husband who will take any opportunity to blame u for his child's poor performance due to overworking
i guess, this time, will be the first
and hopefully the last time
that im going to lie about my results through my teeth
to save her from getting blamed for my stupidity
and to save her from additional worries, which she have alrdy gained from work and of cuz, her husband.

all in all
CTs ended today [technically yesterday]
but end-of-exams has never been too joyous for me.
cuz it'll only mean it's time to face the work tt was denied for almost 2 weeks
haha
but stress level dropped, for sure
and tt's good enough.

went to sch in e morning to mug in the range
with johnathan...haha
were mugging peacefully till like 12pm arrived
and we grew kinda scared
not because time's running out
but out of e fear of facing physics students who had then finished their papers
lol
but it's ok they were not too overboard
hahaha

bio's another paper yet to be completed again
though mcq is easier than ive expected
[not tt i find it easy still, though]

trained abit with gen's gun today
[sorry but i kop-ed it w/o waiting for ur reply Xl]
played abit basketball with andy and his fren
slacked in e range with andy while he's waiting..
den ya, went home.

sat, sun and mon were spent mugging
but bio was nt completed still.
it's great to have dexter as my studying companion
not tt he's studying with me
but the exchanging of sms-es kinda kept me awake the whole day
haha.

hey joe,
actually today[20may] when i heard u make tt call
i alrdy know who was on the other line
it's not just a guess
but the familiarity in tt different tone that u used to use
when u r talking to tt person.
be careful, and tt's all i can say.

gonna change skin,
into something brighter i think
haha

wint3rdreamz@2:57 AM
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