::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Friday, May 16, 2008

"a seizure in my heart
and there i am, tearing.
i asked myself why,
and no answer came.
i know internally, i am suffering
but is it that bad, that i'll have to do this?
my mind tells me:
'it's still a great life anyway
so why are you struggling?'
my failure now, in addition to my previous success, explains it all.
my nmsol is falling
and it's all my fault."

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3 days of exams past fast and badly
with every possibility that i might not be able to pass a single subject,
i know im gonna be so dead when results come out
[but luckily, it's coming out after the holidays]

am going to training camp in kl from 27th may to 5th june

and am gonna miss aristal cuz of that.

thinking back, im kinda sorry and guilty for being evil to * during njcis
not that * is being irritating or anything
but just that, if you want to help, do it willingly
and when you willingly help, don't whine about it
then that will defeat the purpose of you being 'willing' in the first place.
i know that * is seriously sincere to help the club
and make sure that nothing goes wrong with *'s experience.
but, when * whine, it makes a bad impression, you noe?

i've messed up my language, but just dun like to keep using the word 'you'

and yes yes yes
i am looking forward to next saturday
XDDDDD

wint3rdreamz@4:07 PM
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