::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Saturday, July 05, 2008

now with all the high-ness and the emo-ness over
i am finally able to speak some sense now, hopefully.

firstly, im really glad for every single support that was given to me during nationals period
having pistol girls to be present is expected yet not taken as a given
every grin they gave me before, during, and after the comp really like lit me up
though most of them may be sitting near xh and sam
but they would still occasionally turn and smile at me
kinda relieved my pressure and stress at times
thx alot girls

like tt bouncy lighting thingy jo gave me
i even tried to use it as a stress ball before comp but lest it burst i decided not to press too hard
but had fun tossing it around still..hehe

2ndly it's to jo, abel, csb and ah pek
im really surprised(more for e 3 guys) tt u would come down n support us girls
thx for sitting it through my shoot
feeling the intense feelings i was going through
telling me tt hey, im not alone.

to prem,
sorry for asking u not to be in
not tt u r bad but it's my bad, not able to take pressure
but thx for using up ur petrol to come to safra and support us girls
and the talk u had with them the day before our nats.

to zr, yanhui and leonard
thx for being with every of us shooters shooting for nats
n for ensuring our guns are here for us to just pick up n shoot and perform

to my aiss juniors,
u guys are always around...proud of the club spirit that ive never really experience it before when i myself was in ai...lol

to shermaine, eunice, alice, sam, abigail, wenfang, huiwen
really glad to have such great nyt-apw mates!
though we are from diff schs (except for sam) and are competing with one another
we are not sour towards each other (i think..haha)
and still encourage each other in one way or another
for we share tt same amt of passion...for shooting
and tt we will to improve ourselves and excel in it :)

actually i have so many others to thk
like dad, chris, justin, lihui etc etc

haha there were Alot of njcians in the range den when only 5 r supposed to be in
den i realised they can just go in easily in this way:
one with the pass walks out with another pass,
2 ppl walk in tgt.
one of the 2 ppl den walks out again with 2 passes,
and brings another person in
lol

actually yesterday was a really nice n sweet day
shant elaborate y

realised that i actually have 5 days off after nationals to tidy up some stuff before going back to sch.
sat
sun
youth day
support b div apb day
support a div apb, a div arg and prize ceremony day

supposed to go out for kbox today but im simply too tired to do so
wanna some well-deserved rest
lol

now that nationals are over and sg open happening soon
i gonna get into my next phase of this yr: studies
seeing my mid yr results
i think i would give up trying to go for seasa cuz i really need to focus on my studies
but at the same time, think i cant just dun train at all like i was in sec4
cuz i wasnt in nyt then and now im in it
for e promise of commitment ive given,
i think it's just for me to cont training regularly..but of lower frequency
like once a week or fortnight

for now i'll still be staying at nyt
though im starting to be too old for it (or i alrdy m..lol)

sometimes i wonder where shooting will bring me to
how far i'll be able to go on
and when will be the end point

wat i know for now, after my 365 for nationals
i'll never, ever, hit lower than 370 again for any competition again
small or major
a promise to myself subconsciously (not to be thought of during comp itself)
and for u readers to witness.

on a sidenote
i've been watching blood+ since june
nice anime...watched bout 30+ series le
and almost every series seems to be a climax
haha...
there are scenes tt r too bloody sometimes
but overall it's nice!

[edit]
i think it's a really nice thing for a person to know how to console ppl
cuz for one, they can make ppl happier, if not feel better
and 2ndly, they are able to console themselves too..and thus are happier ppl

and i admire sam for tt ability.

wint3rdreamz@5:22 PM
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