::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

omg omg im still stunned by wat ailin has told me today.

i used to resist, alot, when ppl like to put me and some other guys together.
they always tell me: relax la, we kidding only.
so for the sake of fun, after a few years, i began to not to be so resistant against such dixiao-ing.

and now, i got the same thing happening to me again. yet this is for real. an actual possibility, an act of concern.
(im sure tt ailin's a serious enough person to tell me things seriously when i want her to- but if u actually meant to joke seriously, pls tell me so, cuz im taking this for real. hahaha.)
[edit] and at the same time, im sure they are looking for some fun too. heh.

sorry im confused now.
wat is going through my mind is:
"confusing, this is. i dun even noe where my faith lies."

im banking my possibilities, somewhere.

sorry. though im like 18 now, i duno wat is love.
over being loved and loving someone, i choose the latter. and once i realised wat i wanted from a someone is "i want to be loved by u", i reject the idea of being with tt someone. cuz to me, tt's not what i want my relationship to be.

if i can find tt someone who can make me selfless, who is able to make me wanna to care for, wanna to love for no returns. yes, im after u.

wint3rdreamz@12:14 AM
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