::*~Wint3rDreamz~*:: - Enigma of a thousand flowers

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

[15/3/09]

for moments, i lost the motivation and reason to take up medicine.
these few days were, scary.

general practice is not what i want to do
neuroscience takes more than 6 years to accomplish
memorising names is not my thing

the word 'surgeon' seems to have disappeared from my thoughts.
but that is the word that brings me to want to take up medicine
the direct involvement to put things (organs/veins etc) right, the recovery of a person under your hands, are wat i guess most people who considered healthcare for a career would desire.

another reason is actually to extend a helping hand.
with my knowledge, provide free checkups, ease the pains of the poor and unfortunate.

so, im once again motivated. whee :)

thank goodness there's this thing called Exceptional Individual Scheme. but sadly it makes me dream agn.

another direction of mine will be nutrition/sports science. they are more of my interest. i want to understand and enhance performance of athletes (seeing many who cant and myself, who remained stagnant though i know how to go about improving). and i guess nutrition is my thing, such tt i subconsciously find myself reminding my colleagues not to eat this, not to eat tt too often.

seriously, given tt im accepted for both (haha day dreaming), i wun noe which one to go for.

provided im not accepted into any, pharmacy and research will be the last way to get in touch with lives.

i cant imagine myself in anywhere else. heh.

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[17/3/09]

ha im such a loser.
i missed the application datelines

im thankful to have a bunch of caring family members. even my brother was sweet then

i expect too much from myself. why cry? not like im going to get selected anyway.

perhaps i have cried out my 18 years worth of regrets and guilt (particularly these 2 years). and after all these, im surprised how i managed to fall asleep in the end.

im waiting for 9am to come, to call up and hopefully i'll get through.

after so much, i hope i've learnt to stop procrastinating.

wint3rdreamz@8:38 AM
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